Tothian VS. Devil of Brooklyn Soundtrack

One day, there could be comic books and movies written about the epic war between the real life superhero known as Tothian versus the real life supervillain known as Devil of Brooklyn. We have been at war in both the physical and spiritual realm for thousands of years although time doesn't really exist in spiritual realm, but now born into human bodies our battle of good versus evil has manifest into the physical realm.

In each movie, there are soundtracks. Here are a list of songs that would be in that movie.

-One Slip and it's Doomsday by Master Legend

-Collide, by Howie Day

-Let's Get Retarded, by Black Eyed Peas

-I won't back down by Tom Petty

-Devil of Angel by Bobby Vee

-Master Legend's Coming to Town to Kick your Ass, by Master Legend

-Eye in the Sky, by Alan Parsons Project

-In Too Deep, by Genesis

-Chosen Ones, by Dream Evil

-The Final Countdown, by Europe

Difference between "Military" and "Police" mindsets in the RLSH Community

RLSH Ways of Thinking

As a Marine Veteran, I still keep much of the military mindset for my RLSH work/way of life. I usually try to avoid thet Police Officer mindset in terms of ideologies and methods. I'm not posting this to bash cops - there's good and bad cops out there - I like the good ones and dislike the bad ones. I'll try to be specific about what I mean and why, about how unlike a lot of RLSH, I make sure to NOT have that cop mindset, as Police and Military are needed for two different reasons.

Patrol patterns and transparency

With the Police minded RLSH, they often patrol a specific city the same way that Police Officers patrol within their own jurisdiction or even a specific portion of their city or town. Often emphasized is patrol times and locations. I understand why they record that info. It doesn't mean I like the style of it though.

With the military mindset, one thinks in terms of operational security. To not set a pattern where the enemy can either track you down or work around your pattern, if they know it. And should you have to have a pattern for any reason, try not to make it too well known.

The law

With the Police minded RLSH, they feel it's their duty to either enforce and/or defend the laws, or report lawbreakers to the police, or perform a citizens arrest. Regardless of what is right or wrong, good or evil/bad, their allegiance is to the law, even if they disagree with a law or not.

Although in the military, you'll find a lot of libertarian conservative ideologies amongst the majority of them, which for some reason is shocking to people. They think just because the military is strict that veterans love being bossed around. That couldn't be less true. We self sacrificed our own freedom for that time because we wanted to defend the freedom of others. And the strictness reminds us how much we love and value our freedom. We do fight evil, regardless of what the law says. Granted, while in the military we have to obey all lawful orders from those who outrank us and/or hold a senior billet - after our military service is finished, many of us keep our oath to defend America and our allies from all enemies, foreign and domestic - during peace and/or war. Some join Oath Keepers and similar type groups, and many of us do it on our own without the direct supervision of the U.S. Military, some just act heroically when the need arises. With weapons or without. And we stand for what we believe in regardless of what is popular or legal.

Accomplishments

Amongst the Police minded RLSH and RLSV, many former or inactive RLSH get condemned and ridiculed for "not having done anything or much lately". Or maybe they care about how often and long they patrol in terms of how many days a week and how many hours a day/night. Or by how many citizens arrests they made.

People always respect military veterans, especially those who have served in wars. NOBODY ever looks at World War 2 Veterans - the few that are still alive today - and says "They're useless since they haven't done much lately." Instead most people realize the historical signifance, and respect them for their bravery and heroism.

Punishment and Forgiveness Amongst Themselves

These parts are not literal examples of what each side or type would do every time. But it explains and emphasizes the different general mindsets that I've observed and/or analyzed. Police themselves are known for arresting and charging others who break the law, including their own fellow officers who break the law or commit a misdemeanor, etc.

In the Military, if you do something bad or make a dumb mistake, you gotta do a bunch of pushups or whatever as punishment. It is a quicker way to discipline someone and not only does it not ruin your life forever on public record, but it also makes you stronger. Yes there are Military Police and Court Martials, but this isn't as common for the military as regular ordinary punishment for mistakes.

What makes one Active

In the Police, after you graduate the Academy and get hired by a Department, you begin to start working. You're either On Duty or Off Duty, meaning on patrol or not on patrol, or with the occasional office work like filing a report.

In the Military, if you're on active duty, it doesn't always mean you're in a war zone. Even during times of peace and also even in times of war, the patrols and missions aren't the only thing the service member does. They do their physical training, and also have classes about various subjects that are useful to their military occupational specialties, combat weapons, and things relevant to their missions. They even do training patrols and learn team skills such as hand and arm signals as one example. And of course, when the time comes for it, the actual patrols and missions. And nobody condemns a service member who just returned from war - for taking a few months R&R upon leaving a combat deployment, though with RLSH you might get mixed reactions. There is a natural aspect for some RLSH where it is viewed more as a way of life than as a job, while some view it as a volunteer job, but those who view it mainly as work like a volunteer job tend to burn out faster. They're the ones who eventually "retire" when they get tired of it. But there are those who view it as a way of life, whose methods and tactics can change as they grow older, but they also realize that there is no way one can just absolutely "retire" from a way of life that defines who they are and gives them the passion to wake up and get out of bed every morning, and to live life to the fullest, with the hopes of doing good and making the world a better place.

Personality

This doesn't so much apply to cops, as much as it does for RLSH who try to think like cops. There might be a few former law enforcement officers who still keep that mindset but continue as RLSH with a new name/uniform and no direct supervision of the government. There are cops with personality but the RLSH who try to think like cops try to appear so disciplined that they try to be so boring and serious out of a fear of looking weird or crazy, or of not being taken seriously. These are the people who usually think inside the box, because it keeps them thinking in terms of what they deem realistic. On a side note for the record, I like cops who try to think and act like superheroes more than I like superheroes who try to think and act like cops.

I can't as much say this applies to all branches of the military or not - as much as I can say it does with the Marines, how most of the Marines each have their own unique and interesting personality. They aren't only not afraid of looking weird or crazy, they actually embrace it - with a vengeance. These types of people often have to be creative and think outside the box, for the sake of survival, and even morale.

Security

I've done security missions before. Both in and out of my Tothian uniform, but always as Tothian. This is one where I actually DO have more of the cop mentality than the military mentality, but it does depend on if the scenario is generally a peaceful one as a whole. I've done security at rallies before.

Tothian patrols 2nd Amendment Rally

Tothian doing security at Pro-Trump rally. Appears at 3:35

In these rallies, I've often stayed neutral from the debates or arguments themselves, and focused more on the security aspect. I did also speak to drivers who drove up to us in the parking lot to ask questions. At some of these rallies I would film and interview different people. Occasionally I will debate or interview protesters, be they supporters and/or opposition to our cause. I try to be creative about things. And I have answered questions both on camera and to reporters about my views.

I feel with the Military mentality in this scenario is the fighter who actively engages in arguments with protesters in ways that start out political but become more personally argumentive. They make it a war of us vs. them, but I try to make sure our own side stays in line too so they don't get themselves in trouble nor push the public away from supporting us and our agenda. But also because it feels like both the wiser strategy as well as the right thing to do. This wouldn't normally sound like me, since I'm usually all about having that warrior spirit. However, there is an exception to a lot of things and even with the warrior spirit we must pick our battles wisely, and there's a good reason for that because I do feel there are others who hate people for having different opinions (sometimes it's ok, sometimes not, depending on what it is) and also it is sometimes good to have friendly open dialogue.

There are limits to my thinking about this sort of thing though. When it comes to scenarios where you have groups like Antifa attacking innocent people on the streets, or fighting against the Proud Boys (a group I support what they do and stand for but wish they would have used a better name), it no longer becomes a situation of merely personal security nor merely protecting individuals from other individuals, but rather acts of war. And I am a Warrior.

Social Interactions

This one doesn't necessarily apply 100% of the time. One of the facts I left out earlier in this blog is that many police officers are former, retired, or reserve military. So I'm only generalizing based on some observations I've had. When someone is telling a story, the cop minded individual or even cops, will listen thoroughly, and ask questions to understand the story better. One time I was at a bar sharing some of my great stories with a group of people, and one guy was loving my stories and asking me questions, even saying I needed my own podcast, making me feel awesome and all, and then I began to sense that this guy was a cop. I told him that I believed he was a cop, and he verified with me that he was a cop. He was wondering how I knew that. Basically his personality reminded me very similarly of another cop I knew. That was why I kept thinking that. And I was right. A lot of cops I know always seem to like a good story, and they ask good questions. Sometimes they do it just to see if they can get information from people, be it for legitimate investigations, or sometimes just for their own personal entertainment purposes. But as for the Real Life Superhero Community, a cop minded superhero might not always have the best stories to tell, but like anyone they love a good story and are willing to listen and ask questions.

With the military minded RLSH, and I'm specifically thinking of all the Marines I knew, not just some of the Marines, but any Marine you spoke to would always have interesting, wild crazy stories to tell. And there are some RLSH who if you sat down and had a conversation with them, they would have stories you might not believe, and some of which are funnier and more interesting and entertaining than comic books. This type of personality isn't as common in the Real Life Superhero Community, because so many of them are trying so hard to prove to the world that they are boring, normal, regular people. I couldn't understand why anyone would want that, but it happens. As for me my life always felt like a comic book.

Fiction

For the Police minded RLSH, I think of DC Comics. Batman, The Question, The Spirit. These are guys who usually focus on only protecting their city from street criminals, and your occasional supervillain. The comics and movies rarely have much if any humor to them. Often dark and serious.

For the Military minded RLSH, I think more of Marvel comics. They are focused on facing threats of evil all over the world. They are usually fighting some great war to save the world or save literally life itself. Despite the great threats, these heroes often have interesting personalities and aren't afraid to be their crazy selves while fighting great evils of the world.

Punishing criminals and evildoers

I had a similar paragraph earlier about how each side would generally respond to wrongdoings of their own side. In this scenario, one often sees someone do something bad automatically think they should be arrested, convicted, and sentenced to prison.

When it comes to Castle Doctrine. Or Stand Your Ground Laws, these are laws which work better to help the military minded RLSH. There was a scenario in Texas where a teen male raped a female, and her father murdered her rapist. He not only didn't get in trouble, but was praised as a town hero. It might not feel legal for people to say they would wish death or want to kill such evildoers, but it's definitely the emotional sentiment that a lot of people would feel. Many Veterans aren't afraid to say how they feel about such things, including military minded RLSH. And this isn't limited to that one type of act of evil, but any where there is an innocent defenseless victim involved. And it's not that they all simply endorse killing evildoers, but that they definitely support a more hands on approach when it comes to fighting evil. Although such types might also take morality more than or instead of the law into consideration.

The Geist Files

Hi. So around May, 2007, Geist joins the Heroes Network. We first spoke on phone in June, 2007 one night. I remembered we spoke for a while and he told me he was 45. I was shocked. But he seemed like a nice guy at first.

So anyway, we meet in New York City on Sunday, October 28th, 2007, according to m̶y̶ t̶o̶p̶ s̶e̶c̶r̶e̶t̶ f̶i̶l̶e̶s̶ my superhuman memory, we met at approximately 12:48 around the corner of 48th street and 7th Avenue. We had the most fun day. We helped out some homeless people which is not usually my main duty as Tothian, as I am a warrior, but they were there and needed help and we had the means, so why not.

At the end of the day, I said "Hey Geist, you think we should ask those ladies if they wanna go drinking with us?" I thought he was gonna say something like "No man, that sounds fun but I'm a married man." but he was like "Yeah man! Sure!" so I go up to them and say "Hey would you ladies like to go drinking with us?" they were like "Sure!" but then Life overheard and was like "Alright! Get the cameras!" so we all went there and drank and talked, and had fun. After everyone left it was just Geist and me. As we left, years later we would debate whether it was a patrol or not. He said if he drinks, he is not on patrol. If I saw something going on I would do what I felt should do, and you want to know why? BECAUSE I'M TOTHIAN!

So he's like, "So where you headed?" I told him I would go on next train home. He said "well my hotel has an extra bed if you wanna crash there for the night". I'm like, you don't mind??? He smiles and says "No I don't mind." so I'm like, "Cool!" we get pizza and back at his hotel room and I use bathroom, I come out and he is nervously standing there. "Tothian, please don't be mad. You dropped your Military ID and I looked at it, but here's mine." so he hands me mine and his, and I memorized his. Because unlike many of my former friends who became enemies, I have respect and mercy, to an extent. Not for my always-enemies but for my former friends who became enemies. I won't be posting his name or address here at this time. But I do know it. Anyway he asked "So you're not mad?" I laughed and was like "No I'm not mad." and he was relieved.

Next day, we both leave and we head home. I check Heroes Network forum and he sent me a message subject title something like "Hey how are ya, bud?" I was so happy to hear from him! But when I opened the email, it was an eerily long email, accusing me of being a fed. I thought, this must have to be a joke, but the more I read, the more the idea of it being a joke seemed to slowly diminish. I was amused and flattered. Many people in life think I give off a secret agent vibe. It's a superhero thing.

February, 2010. Geist turned against me for wrecking a forum I created but was nice enough to let someone else run temporarily. But he did not turn against them for doing it to me in June 2008 when I ran it. His excuse was "Oh well that was different." he was right but in the wrong way. The HUGE difference is those who did it to me made me think everything was fine until AFTER they did it. And I forgave them. And 2007 and 2008 were HAPPY FUN years in the superhero community. But in 2009 and 2010, were horrible years. The Heroes Network was run by Zimmer who was basically the antichrist of the superhero community. When he ran the Heroes Network, it was no longer a happy fun place anymore. People were constantly being threatened by the moderators like Zero the diagnosed sociopath for example, and yet that went entirely ignored by the admin and other moderators. Constant slander, it was horrible. I had to leave my own creation and unlike the deceptiveness I had to deal with, I let them know if the threats and slander did not stop, I would shut down my creation. Solaris one moderator did help me though. Anyway, they did not forgive me though my action was justified, theirs was not. but the idea is Geist was being hypocritical, and for a while after that, called me his "frienemy". Ok whatever.

A year later, in February 2011, Geist called me up, sad. "Tothian, I really miss Ecliptico. Will you talk to him for me?" so I called up Ecliptico, I told him. He said to me "Oh HELL no I don't wanna talk to Geist!" I was like "Oh come on." "Ok fine, Tothian. I'll do this for you." "Ok cool!"

So I arrange a 3way call, we all talked for a while. It went great. So when I wanted to eat, I had them exchange numbers. So they do. I hang up.

Next day, Ecliptico calls me up "Well, I spoke to Geist for a while last night." "Oh how did it go?" so he told me it went great, but then Mrs. Ecliptico came home, sick with flu, worked double shift as manager. But Geist kept calling the house phone all night, the calls were ignored but he kept waking up the whole family and leaving long answering machine messages accusing Ecliptico of being a fed. So that rekindled friendship for him and Ecliptico died again real fast.

December, 2013, Geist praised Silver Sentinel, AKA Sofa Sentinel, AKA Cellphone Sentinel, and I immediately called his house number that I think he knew I had for emergencies. I knew he would only answer that number. And he did. I told him what I had to say. He said "Sorry Sir, wrong number." I got the hint that his wife was there. And later he thanked me for playing along. I said no problem. Then he began to ask me to never call that number again. "Ok sure." then he began slurring his words and made bizarre threats. That is when I got annoyed and blocked him.

Every weekend when he would drink, he would go on long facebook rants about me, lying or twisting facts. And many people would reply and not realize this man is a delusional drunk with a medical condition known as tremor. They think this guy is sane or that he gives good information? He gives really bad advice, and I feel he is wrong about a lot of his beliefs. I like the guy a lot, because even as an enemy, he is interesting.

One thing many of my enemies fail to realize is that not all of their friends really like them. So when they talk bad about me for something they themselves did, or for something they understand or forgave someone else for, they see my enemies as judgmental and this is how I make many loyal friends and lose fake friends.

So often I would get messages from people "Wait, you're a real dude??? I thought you were a figment of Geist's imagination!" or "WOW! So YOU'RE that guy that Geist keeps accusing me of being!"

One idiot Robert Frost of Paradox Core who is evil, stupid, and fake, comes into my chatroom and asks me why I keep bothering Geist. This was after I had left Geist alone for a while, yet he kept obsessing about me. I was not even gonna waste time talking to an idiot. Instantly blocked him. He is not really anyone interesting or important anyway.

One night I called Geist. I said "Hey man, I just wanted to say sorry for any past problems we had, and would rather us not talk bad about each other on the internet." he then replied "Yeah man I agree." then he added "I'm was at work now though" I said "Oh! Sorry I did not mean to bother you at work" he said "No no that's alright. Just call me in a few hours." "Ok sure!" "And Tothian..." "Yeah what's up?" "It's great to hear from you again!" "You too! Ok talk to you later." "Ok, seeya."

FINALLY! WHAT A RELIEF! I WAS SO HAPPY! I call him about 2 or 3 hours later. He replies "Uhh... Yeah. I thouuugghhhttt about it... And I'llll say whaaaatever the fuck I want, about WHOOOO ever the fuck I want." OH NO NOT AGAIN!

In June, 2016, I spoke to Wildcat for the first time in about 2 years. She let me know Geist called her up a few months prior, and was drunk, accusing her of being an FBI Agent who was giving me information about him.

What is Geist hiding, and why is he so worried about the FBI? A guy who only walks around a few times a year handing out a few sandwiches to homeless people thinks the FBI considers him a dangerous vigilante just because he wears a mask. What an idiot. An annoying but sometimes likeable idiot, but still an idiot. Haha. Like the kind of idiot who says in an article as his civilian identity that he likes collecting X-Men comic books, and also helping people but not talking about it. And when asked about the helping people, he reminds them "and not talking about it."

Me and others call him Delusional Geist.

Anyway, if you are an undercover FBI Agent who would like to provide me with information about Delusional Geist, send me a message. I already know his name, address, phone numbers, family members names, (which I know based on what he himself told me) and also where he works, what he does, who he works for and with (which I am not posting about) I particularly need to know what kinds of pizza (and soda) he likes. It's important to me.

There is no such thing as a Hero quitting nor retiring

This isn't intended for me to speak for you as if I knew all of your own personal situations in your lives. There could be things that some of you are not saying for your own personal reasons, and I can understand that.

But, heroism isn't a job. (Some will argue that the military, firefighters, doctors, etc. are - and yes that is true - but even then it's not the job itself it's the individuals doing it) It's something we do because we're needed to do it. The world needs heroes. The goals and mission can change in accordance with what we can do and feel drawn to do, but the world will always need heroes in one way or another.

Since I was born and have always known that I was drawn to do this, I had long hoped for there to be others. Then after several long years of feeling out of place in this world, it all slowly started to form. And there were so few of us. Then over the years it started to grow. So many good friends have come and gone over the years, and I miss my good old friends in the superhero community who aren't doing this anymore or just not around the internet anymore. And if any of my old friends are reading this, I want you all to know that I haven't forgotten about you guys and I would be very glad to hear from you again.

Stay motivated, keep each other motivated, remember why you chose to do this and look at how the world will still need you. There is a lot for us to do. Keep it interesting and keep it real (or unreal, as long as it's interesting, haha) and don't lose sight of a better world that you can create, not as much with the results as much the actions.

I don't wanna hear that anyone is "retired". This is what I think of when people are retired:

Old people sitting around in a rocking chair waiting to die.

Even if you can't do what you want to do nor in the exact ways you want to do it, whether at all or anymore, the question you ask yourself shouldn't be "Can I still do this?" but rather "How can I still do this in some way?"

Even if you're hurt or sick or old or not that strong, you can still learn skills that could still help others in some way.

And even if you're too busy doing other non superhero related things, never deny nor forget the importance of friendship with other superheroes, be it the ones you've known before, or the newer ones who will live a better life and be a better superhero because of the guidance, wisdom, and friendship that you have to offer.

And also take this in to consideration too. Every bit of advice you give to another superhero that they use to help someone else, you are indirectly helping those people through that superhero.

If things didn't go your way and you want to quit because of that, that's like starving yourself because you're hungry. If things don't go your way, that's all the more reason to keep doing everything you can to fix it or make up for it the best you can.

The way of the superhero isn't a job, but rather a way of life. It's who you are and what you're meant to do. It's within you forever whether you like it or not and you can't ignore it, especially while you're still alive and that this is a world that needs more heroes, not less of them.

The actions and standards of one superhero do not represent all

I don't like having to tell people the same things over and over again. The actions of one superhero do not represent all of them. We're a Community, NOT a Movement. But that's a good thing. Superheroes are amongst the more diverse categories of people that there is, you can't define all them as a whole with words, but you can witness and experience the actions and good vibes of it all. See my earlier blog post about that Heroic Box Theory.

But I've said this before and I'll say it again. Nobody else represents me and I represent nobody else. I don't care if you tell me "Oh, but the public won't see it that way." Then what good is it ever saying anything at all if one of my most important messages is going to be ignored? I'm not going to sit back at a comment like that and be like, "Alright." I'm just going to try that much harder to try to inform people of the truth, rather than settle for stupid misconceptions.

It's like there are countless gaps that each hero seems to find their own way to fill it the way they know that they were meant to. And sometimes, certain hero's find themselves with missions that contradict each other. It's unfortunate but it does have a deeper purpose behind it, representing a sense of lacking forced conformity.

I hear a lot of talk about how superheroes should hold themselves to higher standards when in their suit (and costumes are for Halloween, NOT for Patrolling). And that could mean countless things, even things that contradict each other. Yes, it's always great when people want to better themselves. BUT, it shouldn't be for the sake of looking good to others, it should be a reminder to themselves, if anything. Well, as for that, taking off the suit doesn't take away the purpose. And what are the higher standards exactly? Fighting against a friend who did something wrong? Or taking their side when everyone turns against them? Are you gonna choose to be a hero for more people? Or are you going to be the hero to one person who needs it more? Or does it depend on what was done exactly? And if so, what kinds of things? My advice would be, know your self and what you believe and don't base your opinions off of what other people will think of you. Don't ever change your beliefs to please the people you respect, because if they are worth respecting, they won't think less of you for your beliefs.

And what I say about how none of us represent each other - unless you give someone the right to represent you, not because of personal bias towards them, but rather because you honestly feel they represent your beliefs and do the same things that you do in the same way you do them. Anyway, that doesn't mean that there can't be camaraderie. The fact that we're all different from each other shouldn't be the thing to divide us, but rather unite us. That's what makes things really interesting. And it's one thing to save the world, but if you can make it fun and interesting for everyone, then you can better motivate it to want to save itself.

And no, while none of us are perfect, I don't think evil should have any place in any of this camaraderie talk I say. That includes the villains and the fake heroes who portray themselves as good on the media but in reality aren't as nice as they portray themselves as. That's another reason I don't want anyone else representing me and I don't represent anyone else, because so many fakes in the media who are too focused on portraying themselves as "good" (even though only like half of them are genuinely good and half of them are not) rather than portraying themselves as they honestly are.

We don't have to put on a false image of perfection - because we're not perfect, but when only the good sides are seen, it shows people that they're hiding something. If we only show the good sides, what do we do, inspire good people who don't need much change, to be good people? We make a better change if we inspire not so good people to be better, and in order to be that, in some ways you'll need to be able to relate to them. People are more inspired by people that they feel like they can relate to in some way. That doesn't mean say everything about yourself, because some mystery is good. But if you're gonna show the world your good traits, are you also prepared to show them some bad traits as well?

By showing both good and bad traits, you will learn who your real friends are. If people only see your good traits, they will like what they interpret of you. And if it's only good, sure they'll like you. But then see how some of them will stop being your friend and stop respecting you once they see some bad traits. Those people aren't real friends, because your real friends will want to be your friends whether they see your good traits or bad traits.

Stay true to yourselves and don't be afraid to be interesting.

Exposing False Heroism

I'm not going to tell any of ya'll what to do or what not to do. But I will tell you this... That this is how NOT to be a Superhero... Whether you want to be an actual superhero or a fake superhero is up to you, I'm just showing you the difference between false heroism & real heroism. I'm going to use a few made up examples, using humor to make some really good points in pointing out false examples of heroism that are being praised out there, while real heroism gets condemned, by some of the very people who claim to the title and get glorified for it. And people fall for it a lot. I'm here to expose it.

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Greetings, Citizens and Fellow Super Heroes,


This is The Cellphone Sentinel speaking! Last night I patrolled with my partner on my Cellphone Avengers Team, known as Citizen Special! Even though I'm 3 lbs overweight, I figured I should patrol anyway, because my weight doesn't matter, you don't even have to try that hard to be a super-hero it's really easy, just as long as you mean well and have a flashy costume, a cool name, and a good working cellphone, that's really all you need in order to be a superhero.


Anyway, Citizen Special and I patrolled only two hours from 8:00PM to 10:00PM.


At 8:22PM, on 12th Street, in the middle of my city, we got laughed at by a few bystanders. A few women pointed and laughed at us... I think they liked us. The rest of the patrol was pretty boring. I was thinking to myself, "Man, I wish there'd be some crime for us to stop tonight!"
So, anyway, at around 9:43PM, little Billy was getting attacked on the corner by some crazy punk with a knife. "HELP ME, CELLPHONE SENTINEL! HELP ME! I'M GETTING ATTACKED!" Just then, me, having the fastest cellphone dialing finger on the east coast, tried to call 911, but my phone battery was low, so Citizen Special used his cellphone instead, dialed 911.


"911 What's your emergency?"


"Greetings, good citizen! I'm Citizen Special! Perhaps you've heard about me from the latest issue of the Times Magazine, or seen me in my latest-----"


"----Sir, what's your emergency?"


But unfortunately, it was too late for Little Billy. He was already dead. Blood everywhere. The stupid punk with the knife threatened Citizen Special with the knife and told him "Gimme your wallet, punk!" But Citizen Special didn't want to make matters worse. His life is worth more than all the money in his wallet. Plus, he didn't want to get his costume ripped, it costed him a lot of money!


I figured I would do the smart thing since superheroes need to be smart, so I ran away, and looked for the nearest pay phone I could find!

Citizen Special and I found each other about 15 minutes later. There was another woman who needed help finding her missing kid, but Citizen Special and I were really shaken up and it was coming to the end of our patrol so we decided to go home.


I think it was a successful patrol. Even though there was a casualty, we did the right thing.


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Meanwhile, they end up posting this on some unnamed forum for other people who think they are superheroes. They were praised for their bravery in the face of danger and did the right, smart thing, and made it home safe. They were comforted by the words of people telling them that bad things like that are likely to happen every now and then, and that they can't really do anything about it.


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Then, one day it turns out that Master Legend was out on his way to work for some people who needed a skilled man to do some tree work that day at a certain place. Master Legend had a weird feeling that he should go down this certain road, even though it was out of his way and he was already running a few minutes late because he had to help an elderly neighbor with an injured arm bring in their groceries, so he went and made a right turn through this one neighborhood anyway. He sees smoke so he gets to the location quick. There's no way inside the small apartment building, so he runs and jumps right through a window, breaking right through it. He quickly gets through all the rooms, kicking down doors all over the building, luckily he was able to help save every single person in the building and get them all outta there in time, not a single person there was hurt, thanks to Master Legend jumping in to action, but unfortunately, Master Legend did suffer a few cuts and bruises, and some burns on his arm, but this kind of stuff was nothing new to him.


So, he arrives at work, gets there about 25 minutes late. "Sorry I'm late, man! I had to save some people from a burning building." A few people laughed at him saying "Yeah right", but the boss man just shook his head, and with an impatient and annoyed attitude responded "Well, you're late. Are you still gonna work?" But not a single one of them asked him if he was alright, nor the details of what happened, nor did any of them seem to care.


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Master Legend posts about this on his Facebook. Everyone puts him down as crazy, stupid, dangerous. They make claims that he was breaking and entering, that he should've just done the smart thing and call 911, because that would have been the right thing to do. That he could've gotten himself or someone else really badly hurt, or even killed, and that he was getting in the firefighters way and that he should'a just let them do what they were trained to do. People start making threats against him also begin to turn against him because now it's the popular thing to do, and nobody wants to be associated with him (except for a few loyal friends), because being his friend is bad for their public image. Because a lot of them would rather look like a hero to the world, rather than be a hero, in the eyes of God.

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Oh wait, what's that? President Obama nominates Master Legend for the Presidential Citizen's Medal? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Presidential_Citizens_Medal


The second highest civilian award in the United States? Yes. Oh, look! Now all the supposed-superheroes who put him down are all trying to be his friend because now it's the cool, popular thing to do and they're claiming that they never meant any disrespect to him before.

How Dreizehn helped us probably prevent a rape

Someone recently asked me about the Oracle Team, and then I thought of this certain incident. But first before I tell you what happened, I kinda gotta start from the beginning a little bit so you know where I'm coming from with certain things. I'll try to sum up the beginning details so I can get to the details more relevant to this blog entry.

During my first few months of running the Heroes Network, in mid 2007, I decided to create a team of people who had and/or wanted to develop psychic abilities, so that they could use those abilities to try to prevent accidents, crimes, and also find wanted criminals and missing people - things like that. I decided to call it the Oracle Team. I was already too busy running the Heroes Network, so I figured I could make the team as like a certain department of the Heroes Network, and I could appoint a Leader to run it for me, and with the OT Leader's advice and the HN President's consent, we also have an OT Assistant Leader to help them run it.

These seemed like (for the most part) good times for the RLSH Community. People were mostly working together, were able to respectfully disagree with each other instead of argue, insult, harrass, and threaten each other over them. When ever there arguments, they were always settled in like a week or so and then everyone got along much closer than before. There was a true sense of family/warrior-type camraderie in the RLSH Community, the kind you usually only see, feel, witness, or experience, in the military (not that I want to compare it to being like a military - but you get the point). People were more focused on doing what real heroes mainly were born to do - protect people and fight evil. But we also knew when to joke around and have fun with each other as well. It felt like a pretty good balance of seriousness and fun.

The Oracle Team had been through a few Leaders over time. In spring, 2008, it was run by Wall Creeper as the OT Leader, with Nyx as the OT Assistant Leader. And I will say, they did a DAMN good job at running it. There were chatroom meetings every week, there were conference calls all the time. They had provenly accurate psychic abilities and good leadership skills. There were also other skilled members of the team - at that time - like Dreizehn, Slapjack, Master Legend, Ecliptico, Shaaaaadow Haaaaare, Entomo, Max Mercury, Foxfire, Mr. Strange, Black Arrow, Zeitgeist. Pardon me if I'm forgetting anyone else who was on the team at that time, but anyway that was the team for the most part.

Anyway, one day, Dreizehn calls me up, freaking out, telling me about how she was supposed to take a flight from Texas to Florida, but had either a bad dream or a vision about there being a crash in some kind of mountains or something. I suggested that she cancel her flight, and she agreed to it. I also told her to warn them about it, even though we both had a feeling they'd probably be skeptical about it - and we were right - we figured it'd be the right thing to do anyway.

A few days later, I turned on the news and saw that there was a plane crash in Florida on SOME mountains. Wasn't sure if that was definetely her flight, or even one from Texas, but she did accurately predict that there would be a plane crash.

So, some time within the next week or two, Dreizehn had another vision, about there being a rape, I decided to notify the OT Leaders and have them get everyone on board with this. A bunch of us on the OT who were in the United States all got in to both the old OT Chatroom, and Wall Creeper decided that people be set up in pairs and call each other on the phone - while all of us each using google maps for the general area that Dreizehn predicted, all seeing if we could get a feel on this. I don't remember all of who paired up with who on that conference call, but, I do remember that I was on the phone with Max Mercury that night, he and I were paired up on this mission to see if we could get a feel on an area.

Then it turned out that while even though everyone was split up in to two-person groups but on the same mission, it turned out that everyone was starting to get a feel for the same area, and a similar time, and situation, so we all agreed on the most likely scenario, so we had Dreizehn make an anonymous phone call to the police in that area, and she was even slightly ridiculed by them with a little bit of skepticism at first, but since she was giving an anonymous phone call, she had the right to not give out how she knew about it just as long as she explained to them what the likely situation was, and when & where it might happen, and she told them to check out that area and continuously keep checking that area for the next few hours, at least until it got light out.

We heard of no reports of any rapes from that location, following that OT mission. Whether or any actual rape or attempted rape was prevented or not, we're not sure. But I still wanted to make sure that this story was told.

Beware of How Society Works, Turn the Tides

There is a kind of psychological pattern that society often repeats. It makes people feel powerful. And what I'm referring to is the process of building up, just to break down. Society builds up these large buildings and monuments, because that makes them feel powerful to create them. Then, it makes them feel even more powerful just to take them down. The people constantly idolize people and practically worship them as heroes, just to break them down and villainize them. Beware of that pattern. You see it a lot with celebrities, be it actors or politicians.


But, then there's the opposite of doing that. Think of the military process. They break you down first, both mentally, physically, you find yourself being treated worse than you've ever been treated before, you feel weaker than you've ever felt before and are put through so much strenuous exercises and are constantly exhausted. Over time, you begin to build up, you get stronger, and eventually you pick up rank and are treated with more respect. This process is better, to be broken down first, and THEN built up. Look at Jesus. He was treated like a criminal, he was tortured, beaten, humiliated, crucified on a cross for days, left there to starve and then he died. He did that and then rose from the dead so that we could have everlasting life in the kingdom of heaven, if you believe in him as your Lord & Savior and know that he died to pay your debt for your sins. He's a good example of someone who was broken down in the worst way it could've happened to anyone, just to be built up as like the King of Kings.


My advice to the people of the world - don't build yourselves up nor let others build you up so that you may be set up to be broken down. Instead, allow yourselves to be broken down first. If you're on Step 9 and you want to get to step 10, go back to step 1, then go straight to step 10 from there. You might just see something going down and then going back up again that you didn't see the first time you were walking up those stairs.


Do NOT become the delicious gourmet meal that gets eaten then turned into poop hours later after being released from the body. INSTEAD, think of how diamonds are created and be more like that.


None of this "first impression!" crap. That's a purely emotional response, it's a compulsive thing, detach yourself from that line of thinking immediately and open your mind to the divine wisdom of how things truly are and are meant to be, but are rarely seen for what it is. Make it less about the destination and more about the journey itself all together.


You may find that many things I say can't always be taken at face value. Philosophically speaking there are multiple meanings for a lot of the things I say. And I can't even begin to speak a fraction of what actually goes on in my mind. I can do what I can though. And what I can tell you is that if you open yourself up to God, that he can grant you with the divine wisdom as well.

Events in my life that led me to where I am now

Getting the name Tothian

My whole life, the name "Tothian" was in my head. I couldn't say it, I couldn't think directly of it, but I knew it. The best way I could describe it to you was, it's like that song you hear one day, and then later on, you are thinking of it, but can't remember anything about it, but still you remember it, remember hearing it and everything. But for some reason it's like at the tip of your tongue. You could almost say it. That's how it was for me for years of my life, until the name just came to me one day, and I instantly knew that that was it, and saw who I was meant to be.


Why I have a passion for protecting people
Growing up, I had parents who were really good parents, and a father who while was a really good father, also had a very angry violent side to him, but, wasn't entirely his fault. When he grew up, his father was an alcoholic. Me growing up, my father who had previously fought in the Vietnam War as a U.S. Marine and to some level had PTSD, was very angry and did hit me and my brother a lot when we were young. And my brother who went through the same stuff I went through, introduced me to the idea of super-heroes at an early age. All that did was create this uncontrollable passion within me for wanting to protect people. When I see someone - anyone - getting attacked, I get flashbacks of my early childhood and without thinking I immediately react without thought or hesitation to protect people. I can be but I'm not always the nicest person in the world - in fact, I can be the meanest person anyone has ever met. But I do mean well. I have to protect people, that's the primary thing I care about doing in life. I don't wan't people to suffer the way I did. I feel like a machine that's automatically made to act as necessary in any given situation.


Why I'm known as a mean person
One of my fears is becoming the very evil I hate most in this world. And that's two-faced people. I can understand and sometimes respect people being rude to me, because it establishes this foundation of truth and honesty, and from there it makes it easier to make peace from there. But, people who are rude and honest, I find it refreshing. I know where their motivations lie and feel like I can trust them more. I hate to say to trust me but one thing you can trust me to do is, if I don't like you or if I have a problem with you, I'll let you know - unless you ignore me or block me from contacting you. Otherwise, one thing I'll never do for anyone no matter how much they mean to me is pretend to like anyone that I don't like. So if I ever say anything nice to anyone, know that it's genuine. If I ever say anything mean to you, take it for what it's worth, which is usually worth it's weight in gold in humor & honesty, a rare trait you won't find often, that might actually help you and teach you a valuable life lesson. I'd rather people hate me before they like me, because I feel like the best way to truly understand and appreciate someone is to see their worst sides first, and accept them for who they are. If not accepted, then oh well. At least you know you're more like to see who your real friends are in the world.