The New York Initiative is Evil

The New York Initiative began to set up in mid late 2009. It was Zimmer, Z (who was later known as Zero, Jack Cero, Johnny Crowley, and D3V1L), TSAF, and Lucid. Since I lived in an area of New Jersey where I could quickly and easily get to New York City, I met up with them a few times. I never met Lucid as he wasn't there in New York City yet. Sir Steampunk (who I heard passed away some years later) was going to move there, but there was some personal drama between him and Zimmer (big surprise, not) so he decided not to move to New York City.

I wasn't a member, just an ally. Z always gave me very bad vibes, even from when I first heard about him and saw his picture online a year or two prior, I instantly knew he was someone that was eventually going to try to cause me problems and tell people bad things about me, no matter what I did. Like there was nothing I could do to stop it. Did you ever get mad at someone not for what they did but for what you know they are going to do, and you kind of get mad at yourself for not doing more to stop it even though you know you couldn't have, regardless of which decisions you made. Even if you gave up all dignity and self respect and bowed down to them, you knew they would still dedicate their life to trying to turn people against you because of something you said or did, or would say or do, that they deemed a mistake.

It's been said to have a mind like a serpent but a heart like a dove. When I met Z in real life in New York City, we did have some really deep interesting conversations. I could tell by his mannerisms, and communication patterns that he is definitely the sociopath be claimed to be. I myself even said or did some odd things deliberately when I met him because I knew I had to test his reactions, and what I learned about him is that in real life he starts out very friendly and likeable and complimenting and making people think very highly of themselves, but then later on once he thinks he has your respect and loyalty he will start to give critiques to you about yourself.

One example. A driver who accidentally almost hit me when he wanted to drive past the red light and beeped and yelled at me (he was clearly hyped up on crack or red bull something) and I yelled back, then he yelled back again and we are yelling bad words at each other and threatening each other but then light turns green and then he speeds across the main street and I run after him yelling hysterically at him and saying bad words and very bad things and chase him through traffic, magically avoiding getting hit by any cars, so when he got stuck in traffic I walked right up to his drive side window, smiled and waved at him. I was there, ready for him in case he wanted to fight me. But he just smiled and waved back, so I walked back to where I was. Zero has a big smile on his face, laughing he says to me "Now I know what we can use you for. If we ever need to fucking kill somebody!" - ironically that was actually my favorite memory of him.

Anyway, at this time in late 2009, Zimmer had been running the Heroes Network all year long, which I founded and previously ran for two years from 2007 to 2009. He and I were having some disagreements about the Heroes Network. It was no longer a good place anymore. What used to seem like a Heavens Network became like a Hells Network.

Fast forward some weeks. Zero told me there was gonna be a meeting at his house. I said I wouldn't be able to make it, yet I might have actually showed up anyway. But when he said to me "it's mandatory" I told him "Dude, I'm not part of your team. I'm just an ally. I network, that's what I do." then he's like "you're a reserve member" I said "No, I never agreed to that." Actually, people who knew me back then knew I always even went out of my way to make it known I operate independently, yet still willing to help out others when needed.

Zero literally began to make threats against my life, and also many countless other horrible evil threats. I told him multiple times to come and get me, and he just said "lol" but he's too much of a coward to do that, or maybe his staying away would actually suggest that he's smarter than I had given him credit for. But at that time when I told others, many people in the RLSH Community showed me how evil and fake they were when they sat on the fence and "stayed neutral" to such evil. Or if anything, got mad at me for "spreading drama" despite having my life threatened.

I'll never forget after Z/Zero got banned from Zetamans forum. In 2010 he went crying to him in Tea Krulos' blog, he was like "You ask anyone, ANYONE, and they will tell you I'm the most fair person in the world." BULLSHIT! Nice guy Zetaman let's Z back in, who immediately started his shit again.

In early 2011, I tried to make peace with Zimmer and Zero. But instead they made a LIE to the hospital that I was planning to kill myself. After that I was actually planning at that time to go pay Zimmer and Zero a little visit. I told their team mate Samaritan, who suggested to let him mediate first. So I reluctantly agreed. He calls them, and a little while later calls me back, and said they agreed to leave me alone if I left them alone. I agreed. It sounded fair enough.

I didn't use internet on computer too much that year. I mostly used Facebook on my phone. This was still a flip phone. Months later when I did go on computer, I found out Zero never stopped his talking shit. So I called up Samaritan, and told him they never stopped. He said he quit their team a while ago because of how bad those people are. He explained all kinds of evil things about them.

The next few years, I'd see a lot of good people randomly having to leave the Real Life Superhero Community. They explained someone threatened their secret identities. When I asked them I found out it was him. And it wasn't just that. He's made all kinds of threats to countless different people. That's why for some years it was mostly left with low quality, watered down wannabes, with evil agendas. Good people and real heroes were hated, and the fakes and bad people were glorified.

The New York Initiative was featured in the Superheroes HBO Documentary. And all that stuff they said about wanting to be good people and help others was completely false. They put on this fake nice guy image for the cameras, yet in real life are some of the rudest, most evil people you'd ever meet.

Zimmer is gone now, mostly forgotten and not missed at all. When he is remembered, it's like how an evil dictator is remembered.

Zero is still around, calling himself Johnny Crowley on Facebook, but "D3V1L" other places. Fitting name. He's FALSELY preaching of and boasting about his "De-Escalation" techniques, even though all he has ever done was try to escalate the most hostile disputes out of thin air. I called him out on that, he made more threats that the stupid little scaredy cat instantly deleted out of fear when I informed him I kept screenshots of it. Then he blocked me. The funny thing about that is before all of this he lied and told people I was afraid of him. FAR from it. He's goofy and nerdy. Him blocking me shows HE is afraid of ME. He's the most toughest talking sissy boy I ever knew. When I met him I felt like I met some silly stupid clown. At first I actually thought he was a little slow in the head, but I believe he's very likely to be autistic. Not that I'm condemning autistic people, as they can mean infinitely different things but in his case it isn't good.

Just recently Mr. Wannabe De-Escalator accused Master Legend of being a "bigot". A widely misused word, which by actual definition refers to someone with intolerance toward others with different opinions and or beliefs. But people use it to describe people who don't support the LGBTQ Community. Then he dared to question Master Legend's friendship with Superhero. Master Legend, Superhero, and I were all friends before the RLSH Community became like an actually big thing. From what I noticed, people tend to form their opinions on any 3 of us not as much by how they interact with us themselves, but rather how they're told to think by others.

The New York Initiative needs to be shut down.

Impact is a Real Life Supervillain

The guy who goes by Impact, AKA Carter Impact is a liar who falsely claims to be a real life Superhero, despite the fact that he's one of the most evil villains there is. I remember when he first came around and said he took advice from SkyMan I knew he was a joke. But the more I read about the things he said and stands for, showed me that he is a very evil AND foolish man - a bad combination right there.

Since then, he has supported evil terrorist groups like Antifa, and BLM. And when a march occured near him protesting the overturn of Roe V. Wade, he joined them because he actively supports abortion, which is murdering babies with spirits who can breathe, think, and feel. A decision that women usually regret and are traumatized by for the rest of their lives. And then he tried to use religion to justify abortion, ignoring the fact that God hates abortion.

He also constantly posts pro gun control propaganda on his Twitter, despite the fact that people need to be able to defend themselves. Sure, someone can post a story where someone with a gun was mugged, while leaving out other facts in order to manipulate the readers into supporting gun control.

“I would rather be exposed to the inconveniences attending too much liberty than to those attending too small a degree of it.” -Thomas Jefferson

I am sick of good being called evil, and evil being called good. Stop worshipping false idols like him, and stop condemning real heroes. If you take any type of evil, he's the kind of guy who would be able to justify it. If you take any kind of real good, he's the kind of guy who would find a way to condemn it.

He's the kind of guy who if a father killed someone who raped his daughter, he's the type of evil asshole to say "he should be put in prison for breaking the law". Sometimes the law is good, and sometimes the law is evil. I don't support evil. But any RLSH whose main allegiance to the law first, above morality, is pure evil. And it is whiny weak liberal progressive men like him that they say create bad times.

I do not like creepy people

I hate those super secretive people with no real picture who are like, can't let you know anything about me, but I know so much about you. Fuck them. I hate them, do they not realize how little respect I have for such creepy people? They always think "Wow I bet this will impress Tothian if I know this!" nope. Exact opposite. I already know everything about myself and which public information they heard about me is either true, twisted, or false. Some might think "I bet I will make Tothian afraid by being so mysterious!" NOPE! Strong and fit people work too hard to look good and be badass and are too prideful to NOT take pictures and show it off to everyone. 100% of those types are either skinny and weak, or fat and out of shape, or a midget. I always imagine them looking like this beta male nerd.

That's the kind of guy who in school who can't understand why the popular cheerleader he's attracted to chooses the Captain of the Football team over him. I mean that jock guy is a jerk, but he himself a member of the Chess Club, and most importantly is a "nice guy". But he has a solution to that. Just tell her she's beautiful. That will work on making any woman fall in love with a guy, right?

Nope haha. (Idiots. That only works if myself or Robert Downey Jr. does it).

Anyway, when I get a friend request from a mysterious profile, especially with no message, or especially even more so if I get a creepy message, I usually instantly block them. I do not need their help.

I'm also not afraid of their threats to come get me. It's been years and not one of them has actually came to get me yet. Because I think deep down they actually know if anyone came to actually try to kill me that they'd get 20 shades of shit kicked out of them.

Real Life Supervillains

Whether you want my advice or not, you're the one reading my blog so I'm going to give it to you.

If you call yourself an RLSV or aspire to be one, give it up. This isn't a joke and there is nothing funny about you. And you serve as an insult to all that is good in this world, as well as insulting yourselves. Heroes are above villains, villains are inferior to heroes and they're even inferior to regular people.

If you're not one of them, I advise to have nothing to do with these people. Do not talk to them, if you see them on Facebook, block them and do not talk to them. They have no intention of being your friends, even if they say they do or act nice to you at this time. Any time you talk to them, you do nothing but keep them more motivated to stay around longer, and just because they don't bother you, doesn't mean that they won't bother other good people out there who don't deserve to be bothered.

If you are one of them, do not send me friend requests, I won't add you. Do not talk to me, I want nothing to do with any of you. Do not speak for me nor about me, you're not legitimate sources to speak for me. I don't talk to you so you won't have the chance to know me personally enough to find out what kind of person I am.

None of us are perfect but we don't need supposed real life supervillains saying how bad we are or all kinds of lies about us. Nor do we need them to "call out the heroes on their s***" because I kind of like to hear about when heroes talk some crazy talk, many of the craziest people in the real life superhero community are the ones who make it the most interesting, and are also some of the bravest and most loyal and heroic people I've ever known.

I was around this community before it even existed. I watched it slowly grow from very few of us, to how many hundreds of us there are today. I used to notice in the very early days of the RLSH Community, we never heard from RLSV around 2006 and 2007. In 2008, a few would pop up on MySpace every few months, but for the most part, most of the RLSH ignored them, and those RLSV got bored and went away. In 2009, you see more RLSH becoming friends with more RLSV (or so they think) just because some of them made some entertaining videos on YouTube. They started treating the RLSV like a legit thing. That's when the Villains began to infiltrate the Real Life Superhero Community, causing nothing but unnecessary problems. And there's this false misconception that they are only here keep the RLSH in check, and/or serve as a balance. That's a load of crap. That's the stupidest thing I've ever heard in my life. That's like saying that the job of a criminal is to keep the police in check. In countries where that happens, those police are corrupt and often paid off, not only so that the criminals can roam free, but also be protected by them. And what purpose do RLSH serve, if not to stop villainy?

If you're an RLSH, don't let yourself be manipulated by them. They will make you think that if you're their friend, you won't be bashed by them. And if you're not bashed then everyone will like you and you'll be popular, thus, a successful RLSH.

That couldn't be more untrue. The success of an RLSH isn't based on how popular one is, but rather by the positive changes they make for others in this world. These RLSV have no intention of actually being your friend, and the second that you're not popular, or are too popular, or that they feel like having a little fun, they will turn their backs on you in a heart beat. And then when you wonder why you were betrayed by them, they'll be like "It's ok, I'm a Villain. What did you expect?"

Fame and Popularity can serve as a tool for any RLSH, but I don't believe it should ever be an end goal. And I don't like seeing it change people. It is more heroic to be hated just for being someone's friend, than it is to be liked just for being someone's enemy. That's one thing that isn't really understood by most yet.

There's also another misconception out there that evil is only here to make us stronger. That's false. Evil is not here to make you stronger. Evil has no intention of making you stronger. Evil wants to make you weaker. Let God make you stronger, you'll find no greater source of power than God. God is the one who lifts you up when evil pushes you down. God gives you the strength you need to battle and destroy evil.

Do not glorify evil, even for the sake of humor. Those small ripples will create tsunamis over time. And you'll wish you had not done that.

Do not accept evil. Do not justify evil. Do not make excuses for it nor try to explain it to me about why it's okay. Stop it now while you can. Because if things keep continuing the way they are, eventually more people will be inspired to be evil. And the thing about that is that they won't imitate nor emulate the seemingly less harmful types of evil. They will look to make a name for themselves in going above and beyond that.

As I seek to expose evil - yes that's right, Tothian Strikes Back

First of all, there are countless evildoers on the planet. But first I must start with the ones that aren't as obvious to the media. While I myself, when in the media, have always tried to portray the eloquent jerk side of me, I hate it when others out there pretend to be these perfect people that they're not.

While I respect the intentions of some, trying to inspire others to be better people, I personally believe that you can inspire more people to do good in the world when you show them that even people such as yourselves - who aren't perfect - can still do good in the world.

I don't need pretend internet blogging supervillains blogging about what a rude guy I am - I can do that perfectly fine on my own. That's who I am and that's the side of me I prefer to show people first. Fucking dumbasses. Nobody can get disappointed in me if they can understand and appreciate me for even my worst traits first. You're only trying to show them what I already show them myself.

Yes that's right. Just because I'm a Real Life Superhero - don't expect me to be a nice guy. All I've ever said all along was never set your own expectations of me - I follow nobody's standards but my own. I became a Real Life Superhero because I felt a calling to do it. Noah himself used to be a murderer and while I'm NOT one myself, that's just an example of how God does work in mysterious ways of give good people who've done bad things, ways to redeem themselves.

There are a few people I can think of off the top of my head, roaming around the RLSH Community - who I don't like. Seriously. At all. I don't think it would be fair to speak their names here, but the actions I will speak of. Besides, I believe I've made it known to those few people who they are. While they've tried to silence my voice or only speak about me in place where I don't have the chance to speak my mind - AFTER pretending to be nice to me, then talking a world of crap about me behind my back - when I saw right through their false kindness from the beginning. The little fat guys in spandex who believe it's more heroic to stand 50 ft away from a woman getting stabbed to death while you can dress up like a super-hero, but just call 9-11  - y'know, looking out for yourself, legally, while a woman fucking gets stabbed to death. You're not a super-hero you're a piece of shit and everybody knows it. Everyone knows about Genovese Syndrome.

Phoenix Jones exposed these types of losers in recent media as the pathetic worthless unheroic jokes that they are, and I celebrated a huge victory that day. The days of fat guys in spandex getting glorified for settling for being less, while those who strive to be more get put down for being crazy and dangerous - ARE OVER! The people see the truth. It's pretty obvious that people will feel safer when they know that an actual real life superhero is patrolling their neighborhood, and not a two-faced cowardly fat nerd in spandex who looks like a troll under a bridge or a miniature santa clause or a garden gnome who will eat a gallon of ice cream while there's a burning building, but while he's dressed up as a superhero, standing a mile away, he'll call 9-11, and while the real superheroes that are the firefighters in this situation arrive, watch this guy take all the credit, whereas if an ACTUAL Superhero ran inside the burning building to, y'know, actually do something superheroic, like, oh, I don't know, actually save everyone in the building, they'll get condemned as being crazy, stupid, and dangerous.

And I'm fucking tired of that crap already. People who try to hold ACTUAL RLSH's back from great acts of heroism - are villains. And it's even worse when they call themselves heroes. I'm tired of people trying to water down the term of actual superheroism, and then having the fucking nerve to get "offended" when I don't glorify someone as a true superhero for being a fat two-faced nerd in spandex who makes a name and puts on a spandex uniform. Well, pardon me. If everyone was a superhero, nobody would be. You gotta earn it. It doesn't just get handed out like candy on Halloween. I don't care who hates me for my opinion because that's just how it is and if you hate me for my opinion then it's because I didn't bow down to you and view you as a hero when you didn't deserve the title. Guess what. I've most likely been doing this a LOT longer than you and might have a lot more training than you, and I still don't call myself a hero. It's up to the protected to grant their protectors the title of superhero. Even when given, it can never be assumed. And no, just making a name & uniform doesn't grant you the title.

Last year I was on patrol in NYC with a bunch of people, and while I was being so alert as to pay attention to every single thing going on around me, someone who looks like a minuature Santa Clause just kept staring at me like he had a little schoolgirl crush on me. Just then a big ole' truck was coming. Instantly without a single thought or hesitation, I pushed him outta the way. While everyone in the group stared at me like I was some great hero who did something awesome, I got really mad and told everyone to quit fucking staring at me. Just remember that, and unless you were there you won't know who I'm talking about but if you were, then you know who I'm talking about and just remember that.