Thursday, June 30, 2022

Difference between "Military" and "Police" mindsets in the RLSH Community

RLSH Ways of Thinking
As a Marine Veteran, I still keep much of the military mindset for my RLSH work/way of life. I usually try to avoid thet Police Officer mindset in terms of ideologies and methods. I'm not posting this to bash cops - there's good and bad cops out there - I like the good ones and dislike the bad ones. I'll try to be specific about what I mean and why, about how unlike a lot of RLSH, I make sure to NOT have that cop mindset, as Police and Military are needed for two different reasons.

Patrol patterns and transparency
With the Police minded RLSH, they often patrol a specific city the same way that Police Officers patrol within their own jurisdiction or even a specific portion of their city or town. Often emphasized is patrol times and locations. I understand why they record that info. It doesn't mean I like the style of it though.

With the military mindset, one thinks in terms of operational security. To not set a pattern where the enemy can either track you down or work around your pattern, if they know it. And should you have to have a pattern for any reason, try not to make it too well known.

The law
With the Police minded RLSH, they feel it's their duty to either enforce and/or defend the laws, or report lawbreakers to the police, or perform a citizens arrest. Regardless of what is right or wrong, good or evil/bad, their allegiance is to the law, even if they disagree with a law or not.

Although in the military, you'll find a lot of libertarian conservative ideologies amongst the majority of them, which for some reason is shocking to people. They think just because the military is strict that veterans love being bossed around. That couldn't be less true. We self sacrificed our own freedom for that time because we wanted to defend the freedom of others. And the strictness reminds us how much we love and value our freedom. We do fight evil, regardless of what the law says. Granted, while in the military we have to obey all lawful orders from those who outrank us and/or hold a senior billet - after our military service is finished, many of us keep our oath to defend America and our allies from all enemies, foreign and domestic - during peace and/or war. Some join Oath Keepers and similar type groups, and many of us do it on our own without the direct supervision of the U.S. Military, some just act heroically when the need arises. With weapons or without. And we stand for what we believe in regardless of what is popular or legal.

Amongst the Police minded RLSH and RLSV, many former or inactive RLSH get condemned and ridiculed for "not having done anything or much lately". Or maybe they care about how often and long they patrol in terms of how many days a week and how many hours a day/night. Or by how many citizens arrests they made.

People always respect military veterans, especially those who have served in wars. NOBODY ever looks at World War 2 Veterans - the few that are still alive today - and says "They're useless since they haven't done much lately." Instead most people realize the historical signifance, and respect them for their bravery and heroism.

Punishment and Forgiveness Amongst Themselves
These parts are not literal examples of what each side or type would do every time. But it explains and emphasizes the different general mindsets that I've observed and/or analyzed. Police themselves are known for arresting and charging others who break the law, including their own fellow officers who break the law or commit a misdemeanor, etc.

In the Military, if you do something bad or make a dumb mistake, you gotta do a bunch of pushups or whatever as punishment. It is a quicker way to discipline someone and not only does it not ruin your life forever on public record, but it also makes you stronger. Yes there are Military Police and Court Martials, but this isn't as common for the military as regular ordinary punishment for mistakes.

What makes one Active
In the Police, after you graduate the Academy and get hired by a Department, you begin to start working. You're either On Duty or Off Duty, meaning on patrol or not on patrol, or with the occasional office work like filing a report.

In the Military, if you're on active duty, it doesn't always mean you're in a war zone. Even during times of peace and also even in times of war, the patrols and missions aren't the only thing the service member does. They do their physical training, and also have classes about various subjects that are useful to their military occupational specialties, combat weapons, and things relevant to their missions. They even do training patrols and learn team skills such as hand and arm signals as one example. And of course, when the time comes for it, the actual patrols and missions. And nobody condemns a service member who just returned from war - for taking a few months R&R upon leaving a combat deployment, though with RLSH you might get mixed reactions. There is a natural aspect for some RLSH where it is viewed more as a way of life than as a job, while some view it as a volunteer job, but those who view it mainly as work like a volunteer job tend to burn out faster. They're the ones who eventually "retire" when they get tired of it. But there are those who view it as a way of life, whose methods and tactics can change as they grow older, but they also realize that there is no way one can just absolutely "retire" from a way of life that defines who they are and gives them the passion to wake up and get out of bed every morning, and to live life to the fullest, with the hopes of doing good and making the world a better place.

This doesn't so much apply to cops, as much as it does for RLSH who try to think like cops. There might be a few former law enforcement officers who still keep that mindset but continue as RLSH with a new name/uniform and no direct supervision of the government. There are cops with personality but the RLSH who try to think like cops try to appear so disciplined that they try to be so boring and serious out of a fear of looking weird or crazy, or of not being taken seriously. These are the people who usually think inside the box, because it keeps them thinking in terms of what they deem realistic. On a side note for the record, I like cops who try to think and act like superheroes more than I like superheroes who try to think and act like cops.

I can't as much say this applies to all branches of the military or not - as much as I can say it does with the Marines, how most of the Marines each have their own unique and interesting personality. They aren't only not afraid of looking weird or crazy, they actually embrace it - with a vengeance. These types of people often have to be creative and think outside the box, for the sake of survival, and even morale.

I've done security missions before. Both in and out of my Tothian uniform, but always as Tothian. This is one where I actually DO have more of the cop mentality than the military mentality, but it does depend on if the scenario is generally a peaceful one as a whole. I've done security at rallies before.

In these rallies, I've often stayed neutral from the debates or arguments themselves, and focused more on the security aspect. I did also speak to drivers who drove up to us in the parking lot to ask questions. At some of these rallies I would film and interview different people. Occasionally I will debate or interview protesters, be they supporters and/or opposition to our cause. I try to be creative about things. And I have answered questions both on camera and to reporters about my views.

I feel with the Military mentality in this scenario is the fighter who actively engages in arguments with protesters in ways that start out political but become more personally argumentive. They make it a war of us vs. them, but I try to make sure our own side stays in line too so they don't get themselves in trouble nor push the public away from supporting us and our agenda. But also because it feels like both the wiser strategy as well as the right thing to do. This wouldn't normally sound like me, since I'm usually all about having that warrior spirit. However, there is an exception to a lot of things and even with the warrior spirit we must pick our battles wisely, and there's a good reason for that because I do feel there are others who hate people for having different opinions (sometimes it's ok, sometimes not, depending on what it is) and also it is sometimes good to have friendly open dialogue.

There are limits to my thinking about this sort of thing though. When it comes to scenarios where you have groups like Antifa attacking innocent people on the streets, or fighting against the Proud Boys (a group I support what they do and stand for but wish they would have used a better name), it no longer becomes a situation of merely personal security nor merely protecting individuals from other individuals, but rather acts of war. And I am a Warrior.

Social Interactions
This one doesn't necessarily apply 100% of the time. One of the facts I left out earlier in this blog is that many police officers are former, retired, or reserve military. So I'm only generalizing based on some observations I've had. When someone is telling a story, the cop minded individual or even cops, will listen thoroughly, and ask questions to understand the story better. One time I was at a bar sharing some of my great stories with a group of people, and one guy was loving my stories and asking me questions, even saying I needed my own podcast, making me feel awesome and all, and then I began to sense that this guy was a cop. I told him that I believed he was a cop, and he verified with me that he was a cop. He was wondering how I knew that. Basically his personality reminded me very similarly of another cop I knew. That was why I kept thinking that. And I was right. A lot of cops I know always seem to like a good story, and they ask good questions. Sometimes they do it just to see if they can get information from people, be it for legitimate investigations, or sometimes just for their own personal entertainment purposes. But as for the Real Life Superhero Community, a cop minded superhero might not always have the best stories to tell, but like anyone they love a good story and are willing to listen and ask questions.

With the military minded RLSH, and I'm specifically thinking of all the Marines I knew, not just some of the Marines, but any Marine you spoke to would always have interesting, wild crazy stories to tell. And there are some RLSH who if you sat down and had a conversation with them, they would have stories you might not believe, and some of which are funnier and more interesting and entertaining than comic books. This type of personality isn't as common in the Real Life Superhero Community, because so many of them are trying so hard to prove to the world that they are boring, normal, regular people. I couldn't understand why anyone would want that, but it happens. As for me my life always felt like a comic book.

For the Police minded RLSH, I think of DC Comics. Batman, The Question, The Spirit. These are guys who usually focus on only protecting their city from street criminals, and your occasional supervillain. The comics and movies rarely have much if any humor to them. Often dark and serious.

For the Military minded RLSH, I think more of Marvel comics. They are focused on facing threats of evil all over the world. They are usually fighting some great war to save the world or save literally life itself. Despite the great threats, these heroes often have interesting personalities and aren't afraid to be their crazy selves while fighting great evils of the world.

Punishing criminals and evildoers
I had a similar paragraph earlier about how each side would generally respond to wrongdoings of their own side. In this scenario, one often sees someone do something bad automatically think they should be arrested, convicted, and sentenced to prison.

When it comes to Castle Doctrine. Or Stand Your Ground Laws, these are laws which work better to help the military minded RLSH. There was a scenario in Texas where a teen male raped a female, and her father murdered her rapist. He not only didn't get in trouble, but was praised as a town hero. It might not feel legal for people to say they would wish death or want to kill such evildoers, but it's definitely the emotional sentiment that a lot of people would feel. Many Veterans aren't afraid to say how they feel about such things, including military minded RLSH. And this isn't limited to that one type of act of evil, but any where there is an innocent defenseless victim involved. And it's not that they all simply endorse killing evildoers, but that they definitely support a more hands on approach when it comes to fighting evil. Although such types might also take morality more than or instead of the law into consideration.

Thursday, March 31, 2022

Yin Yang in the Martial Arts

In Martial Arts classes, we were taught about the Yin Yang Theory, about how in all good there was evil, and in all evil there was good. While as a Christian, I can't say I fully subscribe to those beliefs on a religious deity level, in other philosophical terms with regards to people, I do understand and have seen it displayed in both real life and fiction.
Some of you who have read some of my earlier blogs might have read my blog post about Master Legend and Superhero, who were complete equals and opposites in nearly every single way. It was a perfect representation of the ideas spoken of by Mr. Glass in the movie Unbreakable. Both Master Legend and Superhero have been mentors of mine, each one I felt represented an extreme version of myself but in opposite ways, as if I am what you get if you mix each of them together as one.

In the Karate Kid movie (I specifically reference the first movie) along with the follow-up TV series Cobra Kai, we see a rivalry between Daniel Larusso of Miyagi-Do, and Johnny Lawrence of Cobra Kai, later forming his own Eagle Fang Karate, and even a temporary alliance of the two, Miyagi Fang!

The two seem to be equals in terms of fighting skill, although throughout the first movie, Johnny was seen as the dominant fighter, until Daniel wins the tournament. Fast forward a few decades until their big alliance to team up to teach a class together. It didn't go as well as they had both hoped at first, considering the mixed and conflicting messages of the teachers. In my opinion, they both are right in how they teach. But as they later figured out, they should teach separate classes, yet still maintain their alliance.

It's important to have different teachers teach you different ways, so you can find your own balance, and your own ways. It's easier to do when you expose yourself to a diverse selection of types of teachers.

Superhero used to be hard on me for every mistake I made. Master Legend defended me from every attack on me that happened because of mistakes I made. Not to consider them like parents, but similar to how when it comes to parents a mother and father might have different styles of parenting. One the strict authoritarian and the other the supportive one. But it also displays the fact that two opposing aspects of heroism can also achieve great results. One does it by showing you your mistakes so that you know right from wrong, while the other one who is on your side whether you're right OR wrong, offers you that unconditional loyalty that everyone in this life needs. One teaches you heroism, the other gives you heroism.

Sensei Kreese refused to see any tears or weakness from Johnny when he learned that the young Johnny Lawrence was being physically abused by his step father. While Mr. Miyagi used his healing abilities to heal Daniel's injuries. They're both right, as both teachers helped their students become stronger, although through different methods, even when they say the other is wrong. So who do you follow?

You have to find your own way. You are not alive to merely be an echo of the world, but rather create an echo into the world. If all you were exposed to was one way of teaching that is what you would become. If you are exposed to a different balance of teachings, you learn what works best for what situations. You become both stronger and wiser.

In the Marines, I learned the difference between training smarter and training harder. Many people might assume the Marines is 100% physical and 0% mental. Doing pushups, running, and shooting rifles. How hard could it be, right? Really it's 100% physical and 100% mental. Same as with my real life Jedi training. When confronted with conflict, the Jedi in me wants to behave like Mr. Miyagi and try to avoid conflict as much as I can until the fight comes to me. The Marine in me knows that in order to maintain peace, one must be willing to show strength and fight because if violence is the only language bullies understand then we must be better at communating their own language with them. The level of fear and respect you obtain from that might also be given to potential future victims. But the Jedi aspect also guides people to use diplomacy to avoid or end conflict if and when possible.

So one must know the right times to be peaceful and when to make war, when to train smart and when to train hard. When to indulge, and when to fast. When to exhaust yourself and when to relax.

There are already systems of martial arts known as Bushido (the way of the warrior) and Budo (the martial Way), so I realized why not create a system known as the way of the Hero. I looked up in Japanese and it would be called YushaDo. There could even be one called the Way of the Superhero. But they would be mostly the same thing. It would be a continuous work in progress over time. It would have a philosophy and strategies to it, ones that act as a balance to Bushido and Budo.

More to come over time. And may this idea live on over time and may others feel welcome to add their own versions and interpretations to it also.

Monday, September 14, 2020

Defining "Actual" Real Life Superheroes

Right now there is a major war going on right now in the Real Life Superhero Community. People don't see or realize it but it is going on. Good VS. evil. It has been going on for years. Good is called evil and evil is called good. Its a war for the very heart and soul of heroism.

We need to define not only what makes someone good or not, but also who is good or bad because right now its backwards. I'm not even saying what a superhero is or isn't because that is left up to the individual opinion and perception and experiences to decide. Part of why I always say this Community is NOT a "Movement" but rather has many Movements in it.

For one, the people who look to condemn others pasts when they seek to be better and don't want problems. Those condemners are usually the bad ones. I dont throw the first attack but when constantly attacked by very evil people dont expect me to be quiet about it. Like how it even says in the Bible that Satan is the accuser. In the end times the deceived will think he was good or that he fought evil. No. He is filled with hatred and unforgiveness and Jesus is the one who forgives those who repent and tells people to go and sin no more. Jesus tells people to become better. That is how you make the world a better place by allowing it to become better.

People can hate racism and police brutality all they want and I will totally support that but once they start supporting rioting and looting and destroying property is where I draw the line.

One deceptive question people will ask you is "What matters more to you. Physical property or someone's life?" Its kind of like a "Push Poll" in which the way a question is phrased will influence the answer. Most people would naturally say someone's life. But what if that life is the life of a terrorist who wants to attack you or worse, and the property is your house and all your money and everything you own. NOW what matters more to you. Its the physical property we have (which they say is "replaceable") is what can keep your "physical body" alive.

Some will ask "There are 2 groups of people in danger. In one group there is 100 people and in another group is 2 people. Who do you save?" Most people would want to save the 100. But again what if the 100 people are all terrorists and the 2 people are your best friends or relatives?

The idea here is words can deceive. As Master Legend taught me many years ago, people need to have sight beyond sight.

I dont care what people's political views are, for the most part. But I do care about people being safe and free.

One guy said something really really dumb to me recently. He said "RLSH shouldn't carry weapons because we need to give people hope." Hope for what? That we can be easy targets like sitting ducks in a real emergency? That wouldn't make me feel very safe having them keep me safe if they didn't have adequate means of defending their own selves or others from extreme threats. That doesn't give me hope at all and its another example of the liberal progressive agenda destroying the Superhero Community from within. People are told against being real ACTUAL Superheroes.

One guy told me when he joined a welcome group for superheroes (run by very VERY bad people) he was TOLD to not ever fight the bad guys or actually protect people, and to instead just go around filming himself feeding homeless people. ARE YOU SERIOUSLY F***ING KIDDING ME?!?!?!?!?!?!?! That cheap watered down imitation of superheroes has mostly destroyed this community from within.

Remember. It isn't about image and it isn't about who people are "associated with". Popularity is a tool but it is NOT an ingredient of heroism.

This might get a little bit confusing what I say so pay attention carefully. Remove this "Cancel Culture". It is destroying the world and will continue to do so. The goal of making the world a better place is to allow it to become better. HOWEVER, when evil people who are destroying the Real Life Superhero Community from the inside DARE to call ME evil or bad when A LOT of them are guilty than far worse than me, and people who never even spoke to me before automatically believe it I'm going to start calling them out. I'm not going to be quiet about it anymore.

I am actually going to start calling out names and peoples flaws.

Rock N Roll. I blocked her way early on because all my friends were attacked by her and she was friends with my enemies. I followed my instincts on that. I heard her voice on Crossfire's show and got a really really bad evil vibe from her. She came across as so unlikeable and like she thinks she is better than everyone. Recently she DARED say MY name as if she is an expert on me? I never ever spoke to her ONCE. She has always been toxic to this community.

SkyMan. Most overweight human being I had ever seen over a decade ago. And he still is. Everyone just keeps glorifying him which isn't helping him at all. He isn't even a real superhero. For example, a REAL ACTUAL Superhero will be more likely to be condemned and hated in this messed up evil world. But a fake Superhero is more likely to be glorified. He is constantly getting sympathy from hundreds of people who encourage him to stay overweight. Despite a decade ago he wanted to be friends with Phoenix Jones and patrol with him ONLY because Phoenix Jones was just in an article. And he latches on to big names. When an actual crime occurred... it was a shooting. Phoenix Jones (he didn't condemn me for my past mistakes - so don't ask me to do it to him) immediately ran to the scene of the shooting to go after the shooter and make sure people were safe. SkyMan ran away and hid behind a taxi. And yet everyone condemned Phoenix Jones and glorified SkyMan. That's what is wrong with this community.

Ace Edward Venom and Skye Knight are bad because they outright condemned me because of what they heard about me without ever getting to know me or hear my side of things. They were both filled with such an evil hateful horrible demonic vibe. Ace Edward Venom actually calls himself a Jedi but he is more like a Sith. It reminds me of my nightmares when there was a whole community of demons posing as Superheroes and it was the most evil vibe I cant even explain to you in words but it felt exactly like that.

Dusk. I call him Demonic Dusk because he is a bad guy. He always has been a trouble maker in the Real Life Superhero Community which is why I avoided him long ago. He constantly harassed disabled people. And when I went out and tried to do good he while doing nothing decided to condemn me for it. As if I'm supposed to just crawl under a rock and die???? I knew long ago he gave a bad vibe when he was a newby (to me he is still a newby) and now he thinks he is someone special? He is not tough at all. He is not too funny neither. And he supports getting rid of the New York Police Department WHILE crime skyrockets in New York City. He is a villain in every sense of the word.

Citizen Tiger. He at first seemed like a self righteous pompous douchebag which would normally make me like someone but he had bad vibes. We had an argument and a falling out and then a year or 2 later during World War Tothian he admitted he was just faking a friendship with me just to spy on me. WHAT A FAKE! I heard him speak on a radio show and he sounds a LOT more like a cop than a superhero. It's actually cool when cops talk and act like superheroes but NOT cool when superheroes talk and act like cops.

Dark Defender. One of the lamest and most boring people you could ever meet. Sorta. One of the only interesting things about him is he has that weird stuh-stuh-stuh-stuh-stuh-stuh-stutter. And that 2/3 of his team are incompetent liabilities. One who harasses cops and the other who thinks he is Anakin Solo from the Extended Star Wars Universe and lives in a facility for the disabled. A few years ago he was online dating a fake profile of some asian chick who kept dying and coming back to life every other week. When he kept idolizing the fakes I WARNED HIM! AND NOT A DAMN RESPONSE FROM HIM! He is not the kind of guy who would really have your back like a real superhero would.

Thursday, October 6, 2016

The Geist Files

Hi. So around May, 2007, Geist joins the Heroes Network. We first spoke on phone in June, 2007 one night. I remembered we spoke for a while and he told me he was 45. I was shocked. But he seemed like a nice guy at first.

So anyway, we meet in New York City on Sunday, October 28th, 2007, according to m̶y̶ t̶o̶p̶ s̶e̶c̶r̶e̶t̶ f̶i̶l̶e̶s̶ my superhuman memory, we met at approximately 12:48 around the corner of 48th street and 7th Avenue. We had the most fun day. We helped out some homeless people which is not usually my main duty as Tothian, as I am a warrior, but they were there and needed help and we had the means, so why not.

At the end of the day, I said "Hey Geist, you think we should ask those ladies if they wanna go drinking with us?" I thought he was gonna say something like "No man, that sounds fun but I'm a married man." but he was like "Yeah man! Sure!" so I go up to them and say "Hey would you ladies like to go drinking with us?" they were like "Sure!" but then Life overheard and was like "Alright! Get the cameras!" so we all went there and drank and talked, and had fun. After everyone left it was just Geist and me. As we left, years later we would debate whether it was a patrol or not. He said if he drinks, he is not on patrol. If I saw something going on I would do what I felt should do, and you want to know why? BECAUSE I'M TOTHIAN!

So he's like, "So where you headed?" I told him I would go on next train home. He said "well my hotel has an extra bed if you wanna crash there for the night". I'm like, you don't mind??? He smiles and says "No I don't mind." so I'm like, "Cool!" we get pizza and back at his hotel room and I use bathroom, I come out and he is nervously standing there. "Tothian, please don't be mad. You dropped your Military ID and I looked at it, but here's mine." so he hands me mine and his, and I memorized his. Because unlike many of my former friends who became enemies, I have respect and mercy, to an extent. Not for my always-enemies but for my former friends who became enemies. I won't be posting his name or address here at this time. But I do know it. Anyway he asked "So you're not mad?" I laughed and was like "No I'm not mad." and he was relieved.

Next day, we both leave and we head home. I check Heroes Network forum and he sent me a message subject title something like "Hey how are ya, bud?" I was so happy to hear from him! But when I opened the email, it was an eerily long email, accusing me of being a fed. I thought, this must have to be a joke, but the more I read, the more the idea of it being a joke seemed to slowly diminish. I was amused and flattered. Many people in life think I give off a secret agent vibe. It's a superhero thing.

February, 2010. Geist turned against me for wrecking a forum I created but was nice enough to let someone else run temporarily. But he did not turn against them for doing it to me in June 2008 when I ran it. His excuse was "Oh well that was different." he was right but in the wrong way. The HUGE difference is those who did it to me made me think everything was fine until AFTER they did it. And I forgave them. And 2007 and 2008 were HAPPY FUN years in the superhero community. But in 2009 and 2010, were horrible years. The Heroes Network was run by Zimmer who was basically the antichrist of the superhero community. When he ran the Heroes Network, it was no longer a happy fun place anymore. People were constantly being threatened by the moderators like Zero the diagnosed sociopath for example, and yet that went entirely ignored by the admin and other moderators. Constant slander, it was horrible. I had to leave my own creation and unlike the deceptiveness I had to deal with, I let them know if the threats and slander did not stop, I would shut down my creation. Solaris one moderator did help me though. Anyway, they did not forgive me though my action was justified, theirs was not. but the idea is Geist was being hypocritical, and for a while after that, called me his "frienemy". Ok whatever.

A year later, in February 2011, Geist called me up, sad. "Tothian, I really miss Ecliptico. Will you talk to him for me?" so I called up Ecliptico, I told him. He said to me "Oh HELL no I don't wanna talk to Geist!" I was like "Oh come on." "Ok fine, Tothian. I'll do this for you." "Ok cool!"

So I arrange a 3way call, we all talked for a while. It went great. So when I wanted to eat, I had them exchange numbers. So they do. I hang up.

Next day, Ecliptico calls me up "Well, I spoke to Geist for a while last night." "Oh how did it go?" so he told me it went great, but then Mrs. Ecliptico came home, sick with flu, worked double shift as manager. But Geist kept calling the house phone all night, the calls were ignored but he kept waking up the whole family and leaving long answering machine messages accusing Ecliptico of being a fed. So that rekindled friendship for him and Ecliptico died again real fast.

December, 2013, Geist praised Silver Sentinel, AKA Sofa Sentinel, AKA Cellphone Sentinel, and I immediately called his house number that I think he knew I had for emergencies. I knew he would only answer that number. And he did. I told him what I had to say. He said "Sorry Sir, wrong number." I got the hint that his wife was there. And later he thanked me for playing along. I said no problem. Then he began to ask me to never call that number again. "Ok sure." then he began slurring his words and made bizarre threats. That is when I got annoyed and blocked him.

Every weekend when he would drink, he would go on long facebook rants about me, lying or twisting facts. And many people would reply and not realize this man is a delusional drunk with a medical condition known as tremor. They think this guy is sane or that he gives good information? He gives really bad advice, and I feel he is wrong about a lot of his beliefs. I like the guy a lot, because even as an enemy, he is interesting.

One thing many of my enemies fail to realize is that not all of their friends really like them. So when they talk bad about me for something they themselves did, or for something they understand or forgave someone else for, they see my enemies as judgmental and this is how I make many loyal friends and lose fake friends.

So often I would get messages from people "Wait, you're a real dude??? I thought you were a figment of Geist's imagination!" or "WOW! So YOU'RE that guy that Geist keeps accusing me of being!"

One idiot Robert Frost of Paradox Core who is evil, stupid, and fake, comes into my chatroom and asks me why I keep bothering Geist. This was after I had left Geist alone for a while, yet he kept obsessing about me. I was not even gonna waste time talking to an idiot. Instantly blocked him. He is not really anyone interesting or important anyway.

One night I called Geist. I said "Hey man, I just wanted to say sorry for any past problems we had, and would rather us not talk bad about each other on the internet." he then replied "Yeah man I agree." then he added "I'm was at work now though" I said "Oh! Sorry I did not mean to bother you at work" he said "No no that's alright. Just call me in a few hours." "Ok sure!" "And Tothian..." "Yeah what's up?" "It's great to hear from you again!" "You too! Ok talk to you later." "Ok, seeya."

FINALLY! WHAT A RELIEF! I WAS SO HAPPY! I call him about 2 or 3 hours later. He replies "Uhh... Yeah. I thouuugghhhttt about it... And I'llll say whaaaatever the fuck I want, about WHOOOO ever the fuck I want." OH NO NOT AGAIN!

In June, 2016, I spoke to Wildcat for the first time in about 2 years. She let me know Geist called her up a few months prior, and was drunk, accusing her of being an FBI Agent who was giving me information about him.

What is Geist hiding, and why is he so worried about the FBI? A guy who only walks around a few times a year handing out a few sandwiches to homeless people thinks the FBI considers him a dangerous vigilante just because he wears a mask. What an idiot. An annoying but sometimes likeable idiot, but still an idiot. Haha. Like the kind of idiot who says in an article as his civilian identity that he likes collecting X-Men comic books, and also helping people but not talking about it. And when asked about the helping people, he reminds them "and not talking about it."

Me and others call him Delusional Geist.

Anyway, if you are an undercover FBI Agent who would like to provide me with information about Delusional Geist, send me a message. I already know his name, address, phone numbers, family members names, (which I know based on what he himself told me) and also where he works, what he does, who he works for and with (which I am not posting about) I particularly need to know what kinds of pizza (and soda) he likes. It's important to me.

Friday, June 3, 2016

Master Legend & Superhero: Mirror Souls

Truth is stranger than fiction.

In Unbreakable, the movie starring Bruce Willis and Samuel L. Jackson, you find the hero and villain, they are symbolically a mirror. Meaning in some ways exact same. In other ways, exact opposite. Both had a rare same weakness, water. Could not swim. But were opposites as Bruce Willis had super strength, and Samuel L. Jackson had weak bones.

Master Legend and Superhero are in so many ways the complete and exact opposites of each other, in nearly every single way...

...But in a few ways, they are exactly the same.

Both were born in the late 1960's, both were in the military for a short period of time after being kicked out, for opposite reasons.

Both lived out of state and were abused by their parent and (younger?) brother. Both have severe PTSD and have reacted to it differently. Both moved to Florida and discovered the real life superhero community in 2006.

Superhero is old (though still collects godzilla toys like a little kid - thus making him on both ends of the age spectrum as being old and young) and bald. In his own words "old and bald".

Master Legend in his own words is ageless, timeless. And has long hair.

Superhero has a nice paying easy indoor job. Lives on nice side of town. Sold his car recently, bought a new one.

Master Legend works tough, outdoor jobs. Lives on seedy side of town. Does not get paid well. Lost his vehicle in an accident.

Superhero got married at an older age than most, a few years ago.

Master Legend married at an age younger than most. Was married twice, is not married now.

I think of how I met them. Superhero sent a message first with no friend request. When I read it, I thought, this guy and I are NOT going to like each other, he is going to be so pro government authoritarianism, we are not going to get along. I was partially right and partially wrong.

Master Legend sent me a friend request with no message. When we finally did speak, I thought, wow this guy and I are going to be really good friends. I was right.

Superhero was always quick to turn against me when ever anyone spoke ill of me.

Master Legend always quick to defend me when anyone spoke ill of me.

Rare exceptions where that was reversed, but at same times.

Superhero loves popular people. Master Legend gets along better with outcasts. The better others speak of you, the more Superhero will like you and Master Legend will dislike you, and vice versa. When others speak ill of you, Superhero will hate you and Master Legend will like you. Superhero looks friendly and approachable but can be mean if angered to a certain point. Master Legend is scary upon first glance until you know him. This is odd because when I saw Superhero online, I thought he would have a grizzly voice. He had a smooth voice. I thought Master Legend would have a smooth voice, but he has a raspy voice.

Superhero loves cops. Master Legend hates cops (just the bad ones). Superhero is pro gun but anti gun rights, Master Legend is anti gun but (I think?) pro gun rights.

Superhero does not seem to believe in God but condemns anyone who uses God for justification for doing good, but also uses the government as his measure of right and wrong. Master Legend exact opposite. Master Legend died twice and is still alive. Superhero never died (Edit: Superhero passed away in July, 2020)

Master Legend often thinks in the spiritual.
Superhero often thinks in the physical.

I didn't realize this till afterwards but years ago when taking vitamins at vitamin shoppe, Superhero said he hates taking vitamins and eats to get all his nutrients. Master Legend once said he hates eating, and if he could take a pill and be full, he would.

Superhero has a colorful suit. Master Legend's suit is grey and black and silver, colors of a black and white movie. Superhero once had a helmet but doesn't use anymore. Master Legend didn't used to have a helmet but does now.

I used to think Superhero would have all the media attention and Master Legend would avoid it, but was opposite on both.

Superhero knows EVERYTHING about celebrities from most to least famous, A listers, B listers, C listers, D listers.

Master Legend does not know anything about even the most famous celebrities.

Superhero is good at impersonating people and characters, bad at making up his own jokes.

Master Legend is bad at impersonating people, good at coming up with original humor.

When ever Superhero lost weight, Master Legend gained weight.

Superhero likes history. Master Legend has psychic powers and predicts the future.

Master Legend loves having so many friends all over the world in all countries, but not many true friends nearby him, just so few. Superhero considers people friends more if they know each other in real life, and does not take internet friendships as seriously.

Say something bad about Superhero, even if it were true, the people would not believe it. Say something bad about Master Legend, everyone would believe it, even if not true.

Sunday, May 29, 2016

I do not like creepy people

I hate those super secretive people with no real picture who are like, can't let you know anything about me, but I know so much about you. Fuck them. I hate them, do they not realize how little respect I have for such creepy people? They always think "Wow I bet this will impress Tothian if I know this!" nope. Exact opposite. I do not waste time on them. Loyalty impresses me.

When I get a friend request from a mysterious profile, especially with no message, or especially even more so if I get a creepy message, I instantly block them. I do not need their help.

Oh, they want to help me with my image. Don't care. I prefer to he hated as I am. But preferably would rather be left alone.

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

I created Phoenix Jones

In late 2010, I got tired of the enemies who condemned me, were getting famous. And they condemned me and Master Legend. So I wished Phoenix Jones into existence. If I did not do that he would probably not exist. But he served his purpose. The media needed to focus less on the watered down heroics and more on the dangerous stuff. People needed to see how dangerous it could be. Those who were doing it for ego needed to be out of media.

Phoenix Jones helped put things back on the path of being interesting again, with the help of the media.

But then my creation got too powerful, and his ego got a little too big, and he decided to alter the truth to fit his own truth.

First, he has a cop mentality. I created him to be like Samuel L. Jackson in a batsuit. But instead he wants to be like Robocop.

I have to correct the world about certain lies he made.

1- He claims he is the first crime fighting superhero in the world. That is a twisted lie. He is a newby who started in 2010. Some may say 6 years is a long time but not for those of us doing this for decades. The Real Life Superhero Community started to come together around 2005 and 2006, and before then too but scattered. There is tons of media proof of this to debunk his lie.

2- He claims he is the best superhero in the world because of how many people he arrests. First of all, Master Legend is the best and greatest superhero in the world. And Master Legend and I realize superheroes are not cops, we do not arrest people. Superheroes are not supposed to be about law and order, but about freedom, justice.

3- He lies and assumes other people do not patrol as often as him because they do not film every single thing. Some of us did this before the internet was even really a thing. I am not all about that whole, pics or it didn't happen, thing. I know how interesting my life is because I lived it. No one else did. But either way, patrol hours do not make you a superhero. Cops go by hours, Superheroes should be random and mysterious if they are using smart tactics. And there is no off switch to this.

He does not seem to care if people defend him for years, those people get ignored, but those who condemn him for years, he really seemed to care more about them more.

He cannot handle the fame. It has gotten to his head.

No, I won't condemn him for things I defended him for before. Because I still believe what I said before when I did defend him. But, tired of the lies and flaky attitude. And also tired of him trying to enforce this cop like, law and order attitude to superheroing. During peaceful protests, why side with government over the people? Government is supposed to serve the people, not control them.

I miss the old Phoenix Jones. He was more fun. I did not even mind the ego at all, just the lies to make him look good and everyone else look bad.

Wednesday, March 20, 2013

The Dangers of Gun Control

In the Constitution of the United States, the 2nd Amendment clearly states:

"A well regulated militia, being necessary to the security of a free state, the right of the people to keep and bear arms, shall not be infringed."

Which means, that the United States Government is not allowed to infringe upon that right. In fact, the oath of office for the President of the United States, is:

I do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will faithfully execute the Office of President of the United States, and will to the best of my ability, preserve, protect and defend the Constitution of the United States. So help me God."

The oath of office for the Vice President, as well as members of the United States Senate, is:

"I do solemnly swear (or affirm) that I will support and defend the Constitution of the United States against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegiance to the same; that I take this obligation freely, without any mental reservation or purpose of evasion; and that I will well and faithfully discharge the duties of the office on which I am about to enter: So help me God."

Which means that any member of any of the 3 branches of government, be it Executive, Legislative, or Judicial, who actively supports gun control, is in violation of their oath of office.

There are 3 main reasons that the rights of Americans to carry a gun should not be infringed upon. We need guns to protect ourselves from the following 3 things.

1- Tyranny from our government.

2- Invasion from foreign governments.

3- Crime.

Now you gotta look at the statistics. Look at places where there are very strict gun laws. Chicago for example. Some of the strictest gun laws in the nation. And also one of the most dangerous cities. Now look at countries like Sweden. 1 in 2 citizens carries a gun. Lowest crime rate in the world.

If you outlaw guns, only outlaws will have guns. Not only is violating those rights of law abiding citizens exactly the kind of thing that our Founding Fathers warned us about, but it also disarms them and gives them no means of self-defense from those who will carry regardless of any such law, and in fact, empowers them against those who won't carry.

If someone with a gun wants to rob a bank, they're going to have a lot more luck in a place with strict gun laws, because you most likely wouldn't find anyone else there with a gun. So therefore it empowers them against everyone else. But, if they want to rob a bank in a place where there aren't any strict gun laws, and everyone else in that bank has a gun, 1 gun won't get them far against 30 other people if all 30 of those people have a gun.

It's sad that after certain tragic shootings, that the government and media wants to use such unfortunate events as an excuse to further push their gun control agendas, which will only make the situation worse. The problem isn't guns themselves. It's what bad people do with them. And the fact that so many potential heroes are disarmed from being able to as effectively defend themselves and others from those who will use them for malicious intentions.

There are some things which could sound good in theory. However, the facts and statistics have proven time and time again that gun control is a dangerous agenda.

Should I ever be killed in the line of duty by an armed gunman, and any politician or who ever tries to push stricter gun laws on my behalf, know that it wasn't the guns that were the problem. It's the fact that I live in a state with strict gun laws, and that I likely didn't have a gun to be able to defend myself as easily without a gun. And we live in a nation where the current President of the United States and the liberal members of the Senate, House of Representatives, and other members of government want to violate our 2nd Amendment rights that have been granted to us by the Founding Fathers of the United States.

No, Americans don't need background checks. While that would sound nice in theory to some, in practice it's unconstitutional. It violates the 4th Amendment of the United States Constitution, which protects "against warantless searches and seizures" due to the need that our Founding Fathers recognized, that people should have the right to privacy. I fail to see how such a concept isn't unconstitutional.

And illegalizing automatic weapons? What about those who aren't as skilled with a hand gun, and only have 10 rounds, but needs to protect against an armed thief who breaks in to their home armed with an AK-47? A handgun wouldn't be as effective.

When you see politicians start to misinterpret the Constitution, violate it, and deceive America about why what they're doing is alright, give bull$#&% lies that they "respect the constitution" while it's clearly evident that they don't respect it at all, you set us back to where we started back before the Declaration of Independence on July 4th, 1776. The very reason that the United States of America was formed was so that we could have freedom from such forms of tyranny.

Back to the Gun Control issue. Gun Safety and Gun Control AREN'T the same thing. Gun Safety has nothing to do with the laws. It has to do with common sense. Gun Control is a flawed concept.

Adolph Hitler once said: "If you want to conquer a nation, you must first disarm it's citizens."

Not only would allowing people to access and carry guns more easily decease crime, and thus help the economy and government budget more by reducing the high cost that crime has on society, but having more gun stores open in more places would also help give more jobs to more people and thus help the economy more that way too.

No, gun control doesn't keep police safer, neither. It just makes their jobs more dangerous. And when their communities suffer because of the crime, so does the economy there, and stores begin to close down, which means (high taxes are never good, but since a certain percentage of any business' earnings go to the government, and more businesses would closing down, they have less amounts of businesses there to help out with that, so then the government's budget suffers, and thus they start having to lay off more officers. Which then makes it harder for them to combat crime.

Here's a link with has some facts and statistics about gun control: 

I'll likely update this blog over time.

Friday, November 16, 2012

Real Life Superhero Community VS. Costumed Charity Movement

I kind of feel like this will be the most controversial thing that will ever be in any of my blogs. More than my political rants, more than my religious rants, more than all of that.

But these thoughts and feelings have been building up for years. And as well as through observations, experience, interactions, studying, theories, all put together, this is what I've come up with, at least as of now.

I don't think a lot of people will like what I have to say. But I also know that a lot of people will like what I have to say. Either way, neither changes my thoughts and feelings on this. And I feel that this is very important for the sake of preserving something that is important to me. And that is the Superhero Community consisting of actual Superheroes, instead of Costumed Charity Movement people.

Superheroes DO NOT wear "costumes". Costumes are for trick or treaters, and actors. They are something people wear when they are pretending to be something they're not. In our self-chosen identities (unless we were given our own individual aliases, nonetheless we have a choice to use them) we ARE these people. We're not pretending. We're not doing this for fun. We're doing it because it is who we see ourselves as or at least a part of who we are, and we're doing what has to be done. And our uniforms and suits aren't worn for image. Self-expression, yes. But functionality is more important. Using the C-word to refer to what a Superhero wears is actually an insult.

And it's not up to me or anyone but the individual to decide what their uniform means. But there is something I notice that there's a well-believed false theory that doesn't work in practice. There's a belief that some individuals tell themselves, that wearing their uniforms will help draw attention to a cause. But in reality it doesn't. It draws much more attention to the individual. There's also a misconception that bragging about good deeds will inspire more people to do it. Nope. Just makes you look self-righteous. Let those that are helped brag about those who did good, but let not the individual brag of their own deeds.

In the Holy Bible, In Matthew 6:1 it says:

"Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven."

If God sees you bragging about that, to Him, He sees that as you rewarding yourself through bragging, therefore need no help from Him.
Plus, in the minds of others, if you need to dress up like a superhero in order to do some form of charity, then people are going to think "Well, that's cool. I would like to do some charity. But I don't want to go through the trouble of creating a superhero identity just to do it. So, I guess I won't be doing any charity then." I believe that it's better for everyone to know that they could at least do a little something. Even if it's just the smallest little deed. If everyone did a little good deed regularly, it would all add up to make the world a better place. Even more than a few CCM people doing it once a week or month.

Don't overglorify simple deeds as great acts of heroism. It's not a quick easy way of showing the world that superheroes exist. It's showing the world that superheroes CAN'T exist. It's not what you wear nor call yourself that shows the world superheroes exist. It's something magical that goes beyond what simple words can explain. It's easier for one to show you what a superhero is, than for me to explain what one is. But if I were to try to explain it. There are 2 aspects of it. One aspect has to do with saving lives, the other has to do with fighting evil.

"But Tothian, I thought being a superhero was about helping people."

Every job in the world "helps" people in some way. That doesn't make everyone a superhero. Because if everyone was a superhero, then nobody would be. Because then superpowers wouldn't be superpowers, they'd be like a form of evolution. And heroism wouldn't be heroism anymore, it would be common decency. Idealistic, yes. But as a world we're not there yet so we shouldn't pretend like we are.

"But Tothian, feeding a homeless person is saving someone's life for a day."

You got that right! And I give credit to anyone who does help someone in need. I don't want this to give the impression that I'm against people helping people in need. But why use the image of a Superhero to do something that Superheroes were never known for doing? And for a reason. Help people yes. There are plenty of people in the world who need help. But don't give the impression that common decency should be considered a superpower, nor a great act of heroism. I don't care how messed up you think society is. It's just not right.
The uniform or suit or what ever it is you wear tells people that you in some way are qualified to do what you do. That doesn't necessarily mean some kind of unrealistic superpower, (realistic superpowers are possible), but at least some kind of skill, ability, training, experience that helps you in some way. Like for example, someone with Lifeguard Training, or First Aid Training, Martial Arts, and/or knowledgeable in some skill area.

Contrary to the perception it's possible some readers of this will have at this point, I don't intend to tell you how to do things if you wish to do things a certain way. But I feel that my thoughts are something that is very necessary to give. Not a matter of what I say Do or Don't Do. But rather a matter of "How I see it To Be and how I see it To Not Be". Do it the way you feel is right.

But one thing that saddens me is people coming in, expecting to fight crime, then figure out a way to do it that seems easier, and appears to help more people, and makes them more friends in the Real Life Superhero Community, so some of them just end up sticking to charity instead. They let others change who they are and what their reasons for doing this is.

I believe that Superheroes can and do exist. The crime fighters and those who patrol the dangerous streets looking to fight evil and protect people, they are the true superheroes who are the heart and soul of it all. They are what started it all and will do what needs to be done. (In the Military, the Infantry are the ones who are respected the most. Without them, the Military wouldn't be what it is.) I've been at this thing my entire life. For years I'd felt alone at this. I felt like I'd be the only one who would be doing this and that I'd forever feel out of place in this world because of that. It's really sad when you grew up finding yourself relating to fictional characters more than real people. Then once I found others like myself, the world felt right for once. But over time I saw things change. The overall idea had been shifted in a different direction unlike what I'd expected, and not in a good way. My hope is to peacefully shift things back in the right direction. Because even though a lot of people would go in a certain direction, something never felt right to them and I don't know if even they knew what it was. But I was able to see it. I've been able to see the problem and the solution.
"But Tothian, if I help a homeless person, they consider me a superhero."
Oh are we still at this "But Tothian," crap? LOL! Alright fine. Think about how you could be embarassing these people by drawing attention to them. YES a lot of them get ignored by society a lot and love to talk to people and go on long rants and not feel ignored, but rather to feel like they too matter. Different people will perceive you differently. Different people will react differently, as well as feel differently. A lot of them will be too nice to criticize someone who is helping them. But please remember to put their needs above your's.
I understand we all have our reasons for doing things. With advantages comes disadvantages. I've got my reasons as well, as well as my own sets of Pro's and Con's. There's plenty of logic which can be debated. But admittedly - at the risk of sounding self-centered and egotistic - I speak from experience. I don't claim to know everything but this is my life. This is my passion. This is my reason for living. Just about everything I study, is because I feel in some way it will help me as Tothian, to do what I was born to do.

And I'm not trying to tell people what to do or not do. You have the right to make your own decisions. But so can I. And right now I'm making the choice to give my advice for all who wish to read it here. I know what I'm doing and have a reason for saying this. The Warrior Spirit needs to be kept alive, and with great passion and enthusiasm, in order for The Spirit of Camaraderie to exist within the Real Life Superhero Community.
Oh yes - and we're not a Movement. We're a Community. To find more of us, check out the Heroes Network Listing, and check out the Heroes Network Portal over on the Heroes Network Forum!

Saturday, November 10, 2012

There is just "God", regardless of your choice.

There is something weird that I see. It contradicts the truth I know of. When people talk about God as if He's just someone they choose to be their God or something stupid like that. As if they could choose who created them. There is no "my God" versus "your God" nor "his God" nor "her God" - there's just God. The one who created all things.

I'm in this world but I'm not of this world. Religions are created of this world, because there's some kind of confusion where they came from and where they're going. And what their reason is for being.

We chose this life. It was spiritual traits such as love that led us to the self-sacrificial decision that brought us to Earth to make life better for others in the name of God. God gives us interests that lead to skills that lead us on the purpose He set us on. We did this for Him. We don't fully remember all of it, nor do we remember Him in all His full glory. We have to rely on faith because blessed are those who believe without any physical proof.

The knowledge I have is written in to my spirit. Things I've known my entire life before I was ever even taught anything about God, Jesus, The Holy Spirit, The Holy Bible, Religion, etc. - there are other things from the other side that I have knowledge of, have witnessed in dreams and also have some fragmented memories attached to emotions that go with them, things I cannot even begin to explain the full awesomeness of it in earthly human words. But if I try to explain that then it will take me longer than the rest of my life and I won't even have begun to scratch even a small fraction of the surface.

God is not a choice. He's a blessing. People can claim to choose who their parents are, in title only, but in actuality your creators are who they are, more in the same sense of how you can NOT change who your Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Great-Grandparents are. "Oh but I get to choose who my family is." You get to choose who you spend your time around and communicate with and such in this life. But we can't choose who we truly are, nor where we came from. Nor can we change the fact that we're here for a reason. We're here because our presence is needed in some way.

We shouldn't judge these days by the harvest we reap. But rather by the seeds that we sew. The harvest will take care of itself. Our actions matter. We can choose what we do for the most part, but we can't always choose what happens from it all the time.

And be humble. Everything good we have in this world, we have because of God. Every skill, ability, we are given from God. Every good trait. God can give you more. But you must bless Him by blessing those he sends you to bless. Forgive others. Not an easy task. And even harder to ever regain trust. And it doesn't even necessarily mean to let people in to your life who wish to make your life worse or drag you down with negativity or attempt to lead you away from God. But forgiveness is like releasing a hot coal, holding on to it and you're the one who gets burnt by it. It lets God know you are worthy of His forgiveness when you ask it. Do not wish bad things upon people if you can help it. Put your faith and trust in God.

And God bless you for reading this!