The meaning of "Tothian"

So many people have asked me over the years what my name means. It isn't anything that defines me. I define my name, rather than it define me. My whole life before I got the name, I knew that there was a name in my head that I was meant to be known as. It always felt like a song I once heard but couldn't even remember the tune nor the lyrics. Then one day it came to me and it instantly clicked and flashed and I saw a vision of myself some years in the future in one of my then-future Tothian suits. While it is meant to sound like a Medieval Warrior or Jedi Knight, that's just the feel of it rather than a description.

I'm a Warrior and a Protector born on a very important mission to destroy evil and save the world. I'm also on a mission to help the real superheroes and remain a thorn at the side of supervillains and fake superheroes. My name is Tothian, and I destroy evil.

Exposing False Heroism

I'm not going to tell any of ya'll what to do or what not to do. But I will tell you this... That this is how NOT to be a Superhero... Whether you want to be an actual superhero or a fake superhero is up to you, I'm just showing you the difference between false heroism & real heroism. I'm going to use a few made up examples, using humor to make some really good points in pointing out false examples of heroism that are being praised out there, while real heroism gets condemned, by some of the very people who claim to the title and get glorified for it. And people fall for it a lot. I'm here to expose it.

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Greetings, Citizens and Fellow Super Heroes,


This is The Cellphone Sentinel speaking! Last night I patrolled with my partner on my Cellphone Avengers Team, known as Citizen Special! Even though I'm 3 lbs overweight, I figured I should patrol anyway, because my weight doesn't matter, you don't even have to try that hard to be a super-hero it's really easy, just as long as you mean well and have a flashy costume, a cool name, and a good working cellphone, that's really all you need in order to be a superhero.


Anyway, Citizen Special and I patrolled only two hours from 8:00PM to 10:00PM.


At 8:22PM, on 12th Street, in the middle of my city, we got laughed at by a few bystanders. A few women pointed and laughed at us... I think they liked us. The rest of the patrol was pretty boring. I was thinking to myself, "Man, I wish there'd be some crime for us to stop tonight!"
So, anyway, at around 9:43PM, little Billy was getting attacked on the corner by some crazy punk with a knife. "HELP ME, CELLPHONE SENTINEL! HELP ME! I'M GETTING ATTACKED!" Just then, me, having the fastest cellphone dialing finger on the east coast, tried to call 911, but my phone battery was low, so Citizen Special used his cellphone instead, dialed 911.


"911 What's your emergency?"


"Greetings, good citizen! I'm Citizen Special! Perhaps you've heard about me from the latest issue of the Times Magazine, or seen me in my latest-----"


"----Sir, what's your emergency?"


But unfortunately, it was too late for Little Billy. He was already dead. Blood everywhere. The stupid punk with the knife threatened Citizen Special with the knife and told him "Gimme your wallet, punk!" But Citizen Special didn't want to make matters worse. His life is worth more than all the money in his wallet. Plus, he didn't want to get his costume ripped, it costed him a lot of money!


I figured I would do the smart thing since superheroes need to be smart, so I ran away, and looked for the nearest pay phone I could find!

Citizen Special and I found each other about 15 minutes later. There was another woman who needed help finding her missing kid, but Citizen Special and I were really shaken up and it was coming to the end of our patrol so we decided to go home.


I think it was a successful patrol. Even though there was a casualty, we did the right thing.


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Meanwhile, they end up posting this on some unnamed forum for other people who think they are superheroes. They were praised for their bravery in the face of danger and did the right, smart thing, and made it home safe. They were comforted by the words of people telling them that bad things like that are likely to happen every now and then, and that they can't really do anything about it.


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Then, one day it turns out that Master Legend was out on his way to work for some people who needed a skilled man to do some tree work that day at a certain place. Master Legend had a weird feeling that he should go down this certain road, even though it was out of his way and he was already running a few minutes late because he had to help an elderly neighbor with an injured arm bring in their groceries, so he went and made a right turn through this one neighborhood anyway. He sees smoke so he gets to the location quick. There's no way inside the small apartment building, so he runs and jumps right through a window, breaking right through it. He quickly gets through all the rooms, kicking down doors all over the building, luckily he was able to help save every single person in the building and get them all outta there in time, not a single person there was hurt, thanks to Master Legend jumping in to action, but unfortunately, Master Legend did suffer a few cuts and bruises, and some burns on his arm, but this kind of stuff was nothing new to him.


So, he arrives at work, gets there about 25 minutes late. "Sorry I'm late, man! I had to save some people from a burning building." A few people laughed at him saying "Yeah right", but the boss man just shook his head, and with an impatient and annoyed attitude responded "Well, you're late. Are you still gonna work?" But not a single one of them asked him if he was alright, nor the details of what happened, nor did any of them seem to care.


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Master Legend posts about this on his Facebook. Everyone puts him down as crazy, stupid, dangerous. They make claims that he was breaking and entering, that he should've just done the smart thing and call 911, because that would have been the right thing to do. That he could've gotten himself or someone else really badly hurt, or even killed, and that he was getting in the firefighters way and that he should'a just let them do what they were trained to do. People start making threats against him also begin to turn against him because now it's the popular thing to do, and nobody wants to be associated with him (except for a few loyal friends), because being his friend is bad for their public image. Because a lot of them would rather look like a hero to the world, rather than be a hero, in the eyes of God.

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Oh wait, what's that? President Obama nominates Master Legend for the Presidential Citizen's Medal? http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Presidential_Citizens_Medal


The second highest civilian award in the United States? Yes. Oh, look! Now all the supposed-superheroes who put him down are all trying to be his friend because now it's the cool, popular thing to do and they're claiming that they never meant any disrespect to him before.

The time I destroyed a demon in late 2010

In late 2010, for a few months, there was a woman in the Real Life Superhero Community known as Trinity, who had an ex who was in to voodoo and black magic type of stuff. Trinity got really sick all of a sudden and ended up staying sick for like about 2 or 3 weeks, and believed that a curse was put upon her.

So, I meditated, and went into the metaphysical state, I asked God to give me my metaphysical sword and to back me up with an Army of Angels, so then I went and saw Trinity in the metaphysical state. I saw a big fat black snake wrapped around her neck. I stabbed it with my metaphysical sword and in the name of Jesus, casted it away and destroyed it.

The next morning, Trinity sent me a text message, saying that when she woke up that morning, that she noticed that she was entirely healed, and thought of me for some reason. Then I explained to her what I did.

But really it was because of the help from others who taught me about this kinda stuff. Master Legend who always taught me about real metaphysical archangel powers, Wall Creeper who taught me how to effectively astral travel, Nyx who taught me about spiritual defenses, and Ecliptico who taught me a lot about supernatural abilities.

Anyway, in the next few weeks after that, I started having all kinds of bad luck from demonic attacks. Everything I owned started getting broken or lost, mostly everyone I knew started to turn against me for the stupidest reasons that were either lies other people said about me, or things I had nothing to do with, and had no control over.

I always notice that when Gods sends Angels and Archangels to Earth, that they always perform all these great miracles for people and do all kinds of good, but despite that, still go through all kinds of suffering. If you've ever seen the movie the Green Mile, different situation, but same idea.

However, there were other certain things I did to take care of these problems. God also told me that 2011 would be a really good year for me, and so far it has been.

Sometimes they say that the darkest hour is just before dawn. And it's true.

Reoccurring Dreams

It was I think around last month. I had a horrible nightmare that when I looked up in the sky, the moon was a lot closer to Earth. It kept getting closer and closer to Earth.  The closer it got to Earth the faster it came at us. It was the creepiest thing I'd ever seen. It eventually crashed down into the Earth right on top of me.

When I woke up, later that day I found out from someone that later that week, that the moon would be closer to the Earth than it ever would be in I forget how long. Although on that night, when I looked up at the moon, it didn't actually look much closer, but it did look a LOT brighter.

Sometime within the past week or so, I had a dream that it was December 21st, 2012, and all the planets were aligned - not exactly as like a straight line, but, I saw the moon in the sky and it looked a bit bigger, and Venus was kind of lower than the moon, to the right. I saw Mars in the sky to the left, a little above it. It started to come at the Earth a lot faster. This one felt even worse than the moon dream.

Luckily, afterwards, I did have one of my reoccuring flying dream again. Every single time I have them they feel physically real, and each time I fully believe that it's not a dream like all the other times, and that each time it's actually happening. The way it works, is, I'm flapping either my arms like wings, or my Archangels wings, as I'm running, then I take a leap into the air, and then I can fly. Sometimes it's almost as if I'm given a challenge in some way and it becomes harder for me to fly and I'm not able to fly very high, nor fly for very long. However, what it always does is strengthen my wings, so that I can eventually in the dream fly higher and longer. My whole life, I've always believed that one day I'd actually be able to fly like that.

Beware of How Society Works, Turn the Tides

There is a kind of psychological pattern that society often repeats. It makes people feel powerful. And what I'm referring to is the process of building up, just to break down. Society builds up these large buildings and monuments, because that makes them feel powerful to create them. Then, it makes them feel even more powerful just to take them down. The people constantly idolize people and practically worship them as heroes, just to break them down and villainize them. Beware of that pattern. You see it a lot with celebrities, be it actors or politicians.


But, then there's the opposite of doing that. Think of the military process. They break you down first, both mentally, physically, you find yourself being treated worse than you've ever been treated before, you feel weaker than you've ever felt before and are put through so much strenuous exercises and are constantly exhausted. Over time, you begin to build up, you get stronger, and eventually you pick up rank and are treated with more respect. This process is better, to be broken down first, and THEN built up. Look at Jesus. He was treated like a criminal, he was tortured, beaten, humiliated, crucified on a cross for days, left there to starve and then he died. He did that and then rose from the dead so that we could have everlasting life in the kingdom of heaven, if you believe in him as your Lord & Savior and know that he died to pay your debt for your sins. He's a good example of someone who was broken down in the worst way it could've happened to anyone, just to be built up as like the King of Kings.


My advice to the people of the world - don't build yourselves up nor let others build you up so that you may be set up to be broken down. Instead, allow yourselves to be broken down first. If you're on Step 9 and you want to get to step 10, go back to step 1, then go straight to step 10 from there. You might just see something going down and then going back up again that you didn't see the first time you were walking up those stairs.


Do NOT become the delicious gourmet meal that gets eaten then turned into poop hours later after being released from the body. INSTEAD, think of how diamonds are created and be more like that.


None of this "first impression!" crap. That's a purely emotional response, it's a compulsive thing, detach yourself from that line of thinking immediately and open your mind to the divine wisdom of how things truly are and are meant to be, but are rarely seen for what it is. Make it less about the destination and more about the journey itself all together.


You may find that many things I say can't always be taken at face value. Philosophically speaking there are multiple meanings for a lot of the things I say. And I can't even begin to speak a fraction of what actually goes on in my mind. I can do what I can though. And what I can tell you is that if you open yourself up to God, that he can grant you with the divine wisdom as well.

Introduction to my Blog

Hello,


Welcome to my blog. What to expect from me? I'd like to say expect the unexpected and that's true in many ways,  but I like to post about my philosophies and random thoughts about all kinds of things.


Who I am? I'm Tothian. What goes on in my mind is so complex, and yet at the same time so simple, that few if any people ever actually come close to understanding me, nor the way I am, nor the things I do.


I guess you could say I kind of this wild badboy side about me. I can't help it and I can't deny who I am. Nobody is perfect, but it's better to at least be honest about that instead of trying to pretend to be perfect. That doesn't mean I don't try to do good in my own ways though. But I'm a free spirit. I don't conform to the standards created by others. I know who I am and who I always have been and what I was meant to do. People may choose to look at me from different angles at different times, but I've always been the same person.


I've said this many times in my life, and I know this will sound crazy but I don't care, I have nothing to prove by saying this, nothing to gain, but I have always known from as far back in life as I can remember that God asked me to come to Earth, saying I was needed here in this world, to protect people and fight evil. But it goes much deeper than just that. To help certain people that God helps guide me to them, or them to me, and/or both. To show people my ways of thinking, as even though people might not always agree with me, although a lot of the times they do too, there's always something to be learned from the things I say. But sometimes I just like having fun, and making things fun for others as well. Finding creative ways to make the world fun for yourself and for others is what gives people that passion for living, that extra reason for wanting to wake up in the morning or whenever they wake up, but you get the point.

I'm a Marine. Not in anymore, but you know the saying: Once a Marine, always a Marine. I'm also an ordained Reverend. I consider my religion to be Jedi Christian. I like reading about things like Philosophy, Criminology, Sherlock Holmes, Foreign Languages, Pirates, Presidential History, Politics, Time Travel, Superheroes, Star Wars, Warrior Codes, Tactics, and most importantly, the Holy Bible.

I also love music. All kinds, but mainly I prefer relaxing music like sappy love songs or classical music. I used to play guitar when I was younger, and on and off over the years. Just tunes and stuff. I also like to sing and never got really good at that, but I love practicing it anyway.

Ok, that's all, for now...

YAHHHHHHHH!!!!